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| Deleted User | Oct 29 2008, 06:07 AM Post #1 |
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Right now... I am so pissed off.. that I could literally kill someone After about an hours of convincing my dad to pour out his bottle, I realized, he's been doing this for 13 years.. and nobody but me has auctually done anything to stop him. When I said told him that he's been doing it for 13 years, and when I realized that.. I felt this meotoin.. somewhere between anger, hate, sadness and... just plain laughter... I hate my dad so much.. he's a heavy acholic who will litterally beat me up if I get his bottle of vodka... The anger is just a vent for the hate.. The sadness is the fact that I know he won't ever change and the only thing I can do to prevent it, prevent the arguing, tha hitting, and anger... the only 2 things I can do.... I can either just wait it out until I hit 18 and move out and shut him out of my life forever... or I can do somehting extreme... like call the cops (which I almost did on my birthday) The laughing... It's because I'm the only one.. in my enire family of more than 33 relatives who has auctually tried to get the bottle out of his hands. The only other person is my friend's mom. She's like my mom sometimes because when I visit my friends, she always treats me like her own.. and to add a creepy twist.. my dad likes their mom... but she, lisa, is the only one who has ever done anythign about it. She came over and convinced him to pour it out. That, again, was on my 13th birthday, the time when I dialed 9-1 on the phone because my dad was so dasdardly drunk.. that I didn't want anyine to see him.... But back to the topic... this emotion.... It felt.... Good I guess... Even though what makes it up is bad.. it felt.... I felt like I could have cut a car in half with one swing with a sword... I dunno... I felt powerful... I was shaking.... I was.... I was... I don't even know how to explain it... Over the next years, while I post, you'll come to know me, and this is my life, this is the crap that I have to put up with every fraping week... He does this all the time.. He just went sober for about a month... and now... He's right back in line for kidney failure... Pfft... whatever... My life sucks and I'm thinking about going totally emo.. I already am inside.. I just never show it... |
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| Deschain | Oct 29 2008, 02:38 PM Post #2 |
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Moving: Debates and Discussion > What's on Your Mind |
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| Deleted User | Oct 29 2008, 05:10 PM Post #3 |
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QQ lololol |
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| Deschain | Oct 29 2008, 11:35 PM Post #4 |
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I'm not gonna do anything, but out of curiosity... why was this reposted? o.o |
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| Deleted User | Oct 30 2008, 12:13 AM Post #5 |
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because its hilarious and me and mike have been loling about it forever. i have .wavs of me and neb reciting the entire thing. |
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| ©Ð/-\¨U | Oct 30 2008, 12:25 AM Post #6 |
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What does he drink? I see no problem here as long as it's a quality beverage. If it's anything below 130 proof your father is a disgrace to his gender. |
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| Deschain | Oct 30 2008, 12:27 AM Post #7 |
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I believe vodka was mentioned at some point in there, might be other stuff too though. I'm not sure. |
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| Deleted User | Oct 30 2008, 12:30 AM Post #8 |
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Nobody drinks vodka by itself, i think carl was full of shit |
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| ©Ð/-\¨U | Oct 30 2008, 12:32 AM Post #9 |
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I'm going to need a little more info than that. Truly no alcoholic connoisseur satisfies himself with such vague descriptions. Unless unless you are one of those people (negroes) |
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| Deschain | Oct 30 2008, 12:33 AM Post #10 |
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You should post those sometime! I'd love to hear 'em. : D |
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| Deleted User | Oct 30 2008, 12:44 AM Post #11 |
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I'm transferring all the files from my old pc, with tons of kw memorobilia, over to my hard drive, then back here. unfortunately, that pc has a 1.6 ghz processor and only low speed usb |
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| Deschain | Oct 30 2008, 12:46 AM Post #12 |
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I could wait. : P |
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| MARBLES | Oct 30 2008, 06:50 PM Post #13 |
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Tim has my badge
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Thanks Pee Vee |
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| Deleted User | Oct 31 2008, 12:49 AM Post #14 |
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Untitled _3_.wma - 2.03MB transferred over all my files from old pc... alot of cool, weird, nostalgic, perverted, shameful, hilarious, and personal stuff on there. might post more gradually. unfortunately he didnt do a straight reading and added nonfunny shit. i swear i had a straight version, cant find it. theres about 4 or 5 more files of various carl and kw posts. i did quite a few recordings, too, but i cant find them and mike isnt an obsessive archiver like me. i do have some crappy phonelogs of from when i called mike and then 'prank' called carl after i deleted his WoW account |
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| Deschain | Oct 31 2008, 01:27 AM Post #15 |
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Hahaha. That was good stuff. : D |
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| Deleted User | Nov 5 2008, 11:02 PM Post #16 |
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Horrible ad-libs. I had lost my place so i just said some random ass word which wasnt funny. GOD. |
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