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| Annoyance; September 13th, 2009 | |
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| Topic Started: Sep 13 2009, 10:59 PM (85 Views) | |
| CaLeB- | Sep 13 2009, 10:59 PM Post #1 |
White Boy
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I somewhat don't feel like typing this up, but if I don't, there will probably be too much to explain by the time I do. So it's been two weeks. Let's start from the day I did my blog. In that week was a good week for me, sorta. So I have this chick who has a thing for me. She starts coming around and talking to me during breakfast and lunch. A couple days went on, and we are now talking over Myspace and the phone every now and then. Half-way through the week, I lost interest in her. I didn't have much interest to begin with. Last Sunday night, I was laying in bed, deciding I wasn't going to go out with her and had to tell her before she clung on to me too much. Feeling ungrateful, I started to think I was depressed or something. I stayed up hours that night thinking why. That Monday, I told her that I didn't want to go out with her at the time being. I told her it had nothing to do with her. Good chance I lied. She asked me what's wrong, and I simply told her, "I don't know." Ever since, she still hangs out with me like I'm interested in her or something. Sometimes she even calls me. At this point, it's annoying. She called me last night because she was bored and even asked me when I was ever gonna ask her out, as if what I said Monday never happened. Never in my life have I wanted a girl to lose interest in me, because I barely ever get the opportunity. She And that's the thing. Every time I take a wrong step, I go through all these crazy assumptions about me like, "Oh maybe you're depressed," or some stupid crap instead of living my life. These past months, I've been paying more attention to what might be wrong with me instead of just... living life. I think way too much... Like when you think about something while watching the movie in front of you and don't pay attention to what you were watching. Pretty much exactly that. I feel like I'm separating myself from reality sometimes because of it. I could be depressed, but I'm sick of thinking about that, every other issue, and thought in my head every second of what's supposed to be my life. I'm overshooting this, though. Good chance I'm not depressed; I'm simply not interested in this girl. Agh, everything was so much simpler back then. But how could I say "back then" when I'm still a young teenager? Still living my young happy days, aren't I? Now For Some Stuff: Anyway, I've uploaded a new video a week ago called "Forever In Ravenholm", focusing on one of Half-Life 2's settings. It's a remake of the first video I ever made, with better concept. The atmosphere is dark and depressing, but one hell of an art. At first it didn't get much viewing, but it all of a sudden spiked up in views today after I found it posted up on the Garry's Mod website. Cool; I'm pretty grateful for it. I've also recently made a Blogspot account to make updates on my video-making. I've also updated my DeviantART account with the newest cool sunsets that have been around lately. A few are pretty interesting if you're into sunsets and that kind of stuff, so check out my gallery. Hoping to have a happier insight of my life in the future. The only times I'm truly happy is when I have some sort of happy thought or listening to some nice electronica during the quiet night. |
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| Robin0999 | Sep 18 2009, 01:13 PM Post #2 |
Skulltula
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So has the situation improved any? |
 
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| CaLeB- | Sep 18 2009, 03:03 PM Post #3 |
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White Boy
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If you mean by her leaving me alone, then yes. I never knew it would take so many signs for this girl to realize I'm not interested in her. |
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