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Topic Started: Oct 2 2010, 10:20 PM (1,440 Views)
Cassie Davis
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It was sort of ironic how the first thing that Cassie saw when she opened her eyes was Leon. In all actuality, if she was being honest with herself, he was probably the only reason that she was still there, the reason she'd been able to hang on at all. She felt herself fading, but she'd held on because of that image she'd had in her head. She'd held on for him. For their child. For any sort of life that they might end up having together in the future. She'd held on because she couldn't bear to let go of that idea.

She hadn't been expecting him to kiss her, and she barely had a chance to respond before he was leaning his forehead against hers. That was when she noticed that his eyes were wet. He'd been crying over her. Crying because he thought that she was gone. Frowning, Cassie reached a shaky hand to his cheek and let her thumb wipe the excess tears from his face. Her hand didn't move when they were gone, though, but instead used it to slowly pull him down again so she could press her lips against his just one more time. Maybe this would all end when they got home, but she'd enjoy it while it lasted.

"Never again," she promised, staring up at him, the smallest of a smile forming on her lips. No, she wasn't better, but with him, she was at least okay. She felt better just knowing that he was still there and that he absolutely was not going to leave. "I told you I wasn't going anywhere. I meant it."

A Healer clearing her throat pulled her attention from Leon and she let her hand fall away from his face, though she was aching to touch him again. Any separation right now was just totally unnecessary. And if they told him to leave the room one more time... Well, they'd have problems. Instead, Cassie recognized the ultrasound machine, and she could only agree that it was best for it to be done. She had yet to actually have one, and they definitely needed to make sure that the baby was okay.

"We're going to have to perform an ultrasound, just to make sure everything is okay with the baby," a Healer explained, and Cassie nodded. She might still be there, but she'd technically died. Sure, it was only for about two seconds, but any amount of time without oxygen was horrible for the baby. The Healer didn't even bother telling Leon to leave or move out of the way - it wasn't like he was going to listen, anyway. And honestly, they understood. They really did. He had every right to be worried. Hell, they were still worried.
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Leon really hoped that this time it would be true. That she wasn`t going to leave him, no matter what. However, he doubted it. There were still some things she had no idea and he couldn`t tell her, afraid that she might get stressed, what could cause her to get in Mungos again. And exactly because of that he hoped that she was being one hundred percent honest when she said that she was never going anywhere to leave him.

Things changed. At first he kept trying to leave, because he had to. He made a promise to a friend who was about to die and he had to keep that promise, because it meant much more to him than he could ever explain. And he really tried to keep the promise, damn, he would have left if Cassie hadn`t told him that she was pregnant. Although maybe deep inside he was waiting for something like that to happen, so that he could stay. He was too weak and his friend had no idea about that. When he gave the promise he really thought he could hold onto it. But now? Now everything was different and leaving her would have been the worst thing to do.

That was why he really hoped that she wouldn`t turn around and leave him. Not when he was assured that he could stay.

”I`m glad for that. You have no idea how much.” her weak hand on his cheek made him sigh loudly and he raised his own to softly put over hers. He could feel his wet cheeks, but he didn`t see that as a sign of weakness. God, he thought she died, crying was completely okay, compared to what he could have done. He felt how she slowly pulled him down and answered to her kiss amazed by how much things could change in the matter of danger. She… she said she loved him. He couldn`t control the small smile that appeared on his lips.

No matter how happy he was for her being alive, it didn`t erase the fear he still felt. She wasn`t magically okay, she looked ever worse than before. Things could go downhill any moment, and maybe that was why he valued moments like that so much. However, now there was hope. He could hold onto it and try his best to be there. When the Healer spoke Leon nodded slowly. The baby. It`s loss would be just as great as any other, although if he lost both of them, that would undoubtedly be worse. Straightening up he held Cassie`s hand, allowing the Healers to do their work.

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It was actually sort of amusing how different things could be after only seven months. Had it really been that long since everything had changed? Seven long, and terribly hard months. Seven of the worst months of her life. And here she was, lying in a hospital bed, hooked up to all these weird wires, and yet she was finally happy again. Happy because she was there with Leon. Of all people... Leon was the one to make her feel alright again. Ironic, right?

The Healer sent a small smile in Leon's direction before actually beginning the ultrasound. The gel was cold against Cassie's skin as she ran the probe across her belly, the image of their child on the screen. The Healer kept the machine from facing either of them at first, though, just in case there was something wrong. She didn't want them to have to see. Instead of that, though, the Healer ended up smiling before turning the machine to face the two of them.

"Well... There's your baby," she said, glad to have a light topic for once. She turned and began pointing her finger to places on the image. "There's its body, its little head... And there are its little fingers and toes... At this point in time, I'm not able to tell if its a boy or girl, but we can find that out during your next ultrasound in a few weeks." Her smile widened a little more. "Your baby's fine. Congratulations, you two."


Not being able to see her child had been killing her, keeping her on edge, unaware of what was going to happen. Was it okay? Were they going to be able to leave the hospital, all three of them? When the Healer turned the machine and she actually got to see her baby? Well, everything had to be okay. Her eyes were full of tears again, but they were different - happy tears. And when the Healer said that the baby was okay? They became uncontrollable. She squeezed Leon's hand then, nearly overwhelmed by it all. "That's our baby... That's... our baby... Oh my... God... Oh God... Wow... It's okay. Everything is going to be okay now. It has to, if the baby's okay... It just has to..."

The Healer smiled as she wiped the gel from Cassie's belly and pulled the gown back down, before looking down at her with a bit of concern. "You really should get some rest." She looked at Leon then as Cassie started to complain about needing to sleep. "Cassie's stable. She's going to be fine. But right now, she really needs sleep. Getting rest will only benefit her, and she really needs to gain her health back. I'm sure that you don't want to leave, and that's perfectly understandable, but let her get her rest, okay? You'll have lots of time to talk in the morning." She left then, and one by one, the rest of the Healers started clearing out. She was good for now. She didn't need all eyes on her now. Besides, after seeing her baby? She wasn't letting herself go anywhere.
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It had been a very long few weeks. Time tended to go by slower when one was stuck in the hospital. But, she was willing to be in there however long it took to make her all better, and unfortunately, that meant she'd have to be in there for a while. The joys of being pregnant, right? More like the consequences of waiting until the last minute to get treatment for a sickness that was perfectly curable if she'd have come earlier.

The last couple of months had been torture, yes, but no more than the last couple of minutes. Leon had finally left her side to feed - because if he didn't, he'd probably have exploded. How did hadn't eaten the Healers yet literally astounded her - and she was left with only a little while to make up her mind about a very important decision.

Did she really want to find out the truth about whether or not this was really Leon's baby? Could she live with the guilt if it was not? And if it wasn't, was it Alex's? Was it someone else's? Could she live with the fact that, not only was she a whore, she was also a liar? Because one thing was for sure - if this wasn't Leon's baby, she couldn't tell him.

Modern medicine with a side of magic helped a lot in situations like this. Even with the baby still inside, they could figure out pretty much anything. Was it the best thing for her, especially after what she'd gone through? No, of course not, but the curiosity was eating her alive. And there was her answer, in the form of her Healer's words, and she could only keep staring.

"Are you sure?" she asked again, for probably the tenth time in the last minute. The Healer nodded again, and Cassie ran her hands through her hair in frustration. "Alright. Whatever. Thank you."

As the Healer walked away, Cassie's eyes went down to the photograph of her latest ultrasound that she held in her hands. It'd happened right before the test, and now her excitement over having this child was mixed with so many other emotions. She didn't want to lie to Leon, but she couldn't tell him the truth. How could she tell him that their son wasn't really his?
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As long as Cassie was stable, not about to die and even smiling now and then, Leon wasn`t freaking out all the time. He now only freaked out on occasion – when something beeped weirdly, when she complained about stomach pain or when a Healer walked in smelling like blood. Except from loud hissing here and there, days went by calmly. He stayed by Cassie for most part, just went back home to take a shower, change and then rushed back. He fed few times during that time and was finding it harder and harder to control himself lately. After all, there seemed to be a lot of blood around in a place like Mungos.

So, Cassie forced him to go to feed. He hadn`t told her, because he didn`t want to get her hopes up, but he was trying. Trying really hard to get over the need for human blood and slowly getting used to animal blood. One fresh, tasty meal, one furry cute meal. It was the furry cute meal day. Maybe that was why he lacked excitement as he left the hospital.

However, coming back he was smiling to himself. No matter what, no matter the things he done and promised and lost, there was a wonderful woman waiting fro him with his child in her belly. No matter what, he couldn`t be down. So, all the way back she and the baby was all he thought about. And as he was opening the door to her room one thought struck him. ”I just realized that… if I had decided to leave one day earlier I would have never knew that you are carrying my child.” He exclaimed, before smiling at her. ”And hey.”

They hadn`t had the talk yet. The talk of what their relationship was and how they were going to act around each other. After all, they kind of said the three words to each other and kissed and gripped on each other, but… after that he just tried to be friendly. Too many emotions probably wasn`t what she needed that time. ”Anything new?” He asked, as he made his way to the bed and pulled out a small teddy bear from his pocket. ”Saw it in one shop and just…. Couldn`t resist.” he grinned.

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Cassie hadn't been quite ready to face Leon when the door opened. She was absolutely dreading having to see his face, but she'd looked up reluctantly, almost frowning when she saw how happy he looked. It wasn't fair to do this to him. It wasn't fair to lie to him, to treat him like this, but damn it, what choice did she have? Still, she forced a smile, which wasn't hard to do after he spoke.

"Well, I'm very glad that things worked out the way they did then," she told him. As far as him finding out, she was honestly sincere about that. She couldn't have done any of this without him. She needed him for this. Regardless of biology, this was his child, because she'd tell him it was his child, and it'd be raised as his child. Still, she definitely wasn't glad about this part. Life was way too complicated sometimes. "Hey."

When he headed over to the bed, Cassie scooted over a bit so that he could sit next to her if he wanted. She was going to respond to his question, but then he was pulling the cutest teddy bear ever from his pocket, and this time, her smile was totally genuine. "Oh, it's adorable... Thank you so much, Leon." She pulled him into a hug. "Now, I have a present for you."

She pulled away and picked the ultrasound photograph back up and held it up for him to see. "Look, isn't your son cute?" she said it straight out, wondering if it'd click in his head as soon as he heard it. They were having a son. A little boy. Their little boy. Yep, those emotions were overwhelming her again.
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Leon grinned. ”Well of course I`m happy! How would it make me feel not knowing that there is my child living in someone`s belly?” He was happy. He had been happy for quite awhile now. Ever since that dreadful day when he almost lost everyone, he was happy and that wasn`t going to change no matter what. Because no matter what there was going to be Cassie giving birth to his child. That he believed completely and thoroughly. It simply couldn`t go wrong.

The face she made when he gave the teddy bear was priceless. He laughed and hugged her back when she said she had a gift. That made him both curious and suspicious, so he pulled back a bit and raised his eyebrow. ”Please tell me it`s not a rabbit?” Cruel jokes, he knew, but he couldn`t help himself.

However he had no idea that the gift would affect him like that. At first he wasn`t sure what the black and white photograph was, never having a chance to see one before. But her words cleared everything right away. ”My what?” He murmured, staring at the photograph and taking it. He needed time. He was supposed to have a better reaction than human beings, but he still took time to process the thought. His eyes searched the photograph and he did see it. He could see it. Maybe he was crazy, but he could see it!

”My son? My…” This was taking quite long and it would have taken twice as long as he was human. Pulling his eyes from the photo he turned to Cassie. ”My son?” It just was a tad too much to comprehend.

And then it happened. The realization came suddenly, as if a balloon of knowledge burst inside him. It filled his whole body, every tiny cell and every gap. ”A SON!” He was a baby step away from starting bouncing. ”OHMYGODIAMHAVINGASON! A son! I`m having a SON! HAVING a son! A boy! A SON!” Short moment of complete insanity as he looked at Cassie. ”WE ARE HAVING A SON! There`s a BOY in your belly! My boy! OUR BOY!!! OHMYDEARGOD!!!!” He couldn`t help it. The news just struck him and he leaned down to hug her, being aware to do that carefully. He wrapped his hands around her and kissed her forehead.

”A BOY!” He would have freaked out just as well if it were a girl. But now, he wanted it or not, but imagined himself playing with his son. His son.

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"You wouldn't feel like anything because you wouldn't know. Duh. But I have a feeling you're much happier this way. Life without me sucks." She stuck her tongue out at him, obviously falling back into being her normal self. How could she honestly be so unhappy and weighed down by guilt while she was watching his reaction? How could anyone do anything but smile at that?

No, it wasn't a rabbit - she rolled her eyes at his joke - it was something much more. Their child. Their son. Their little boy. Their little baby. It seemed to get more exciting every time she rephrased it in her head. She couldn't help but laugh as he started yelling and she hugged him back tightly. No, she'd stop being guilty and stop feeling bad. At least, for now.

"Yes, there's a boy in my belly," she agreed, grinning at how amusing that sounded. "We're having a son... I am so glad you're this ridiculously excited. I sure hope your reaction would be the same if we were having a girl..." She was only joking, though, because she knew it would be. It had to be.

Despite this happiness, the annoying thought of 'what if this doesn't work out?' was in her head, but she was trying not to listen to it. After two failed attempts, was it really likely that this time, everything would be perfectly fine? Could she, of all people, really manage to give birth to a healthy baby boy? Cassie took the kick coming from her abdomen after that to mean the baby was trying to tell her to stop worrying. Trying to tell her that he'd be okay, that everything would be okay. She placed a hand on her belly and grinned. "I think you passed on your excitement to him. He's trying to kick his way out right now."
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The tiny freak out he had must have been heard throughout the whole hospital. Leon wasn`t trying to keep quiet nor was he trying to contain his emotions. It was amazing. Having a son was amazing and he realized that there was nothing he wanted more in that world. Sure, there was Cassie, but for some reason now he put that little baby boy in front of her. It was a true miracle, a thing that no one expected to happen, but couldn`t be happier than it did.

”How could I not be excited…” he murmured, kneeling down by the hospital bed and looking at her stomach rather lovingly. He could very clearly see himself playing with a little boy, taking him out on a midnight walks, telling him all about his experience and his nature. He could clearly see the boy growing up and becoming sort of a peace maker between werewolves and vampires. Neither one, not another, a human, but having strong feelings towards both groups. That child was going to be ~censored~ amazing. ”If it were a girl… it would be just as amazing, because then I`d have two women to give my heart to.” This was the first time he mentioned love after the accident, but it felt right.

He laughed to himself at her words. Kicking? That he couldn`t miss. Placing his hand over her stomach he grinned. ”He probably can`t wait to meet us. Well, no wonder, we both are pretty awesome…” Leon exclaimed, his smile widening as he felt the tiny kick. And to think that something so amazing happened when two so messed up people came together. He closed his eyes, listening to Cassie`s heartbeat. ”I… can`t believe I`m going to have a son…” he murmured.

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Cassie's grin was actually pretty hard to contain. There was Leon, right there, still there beside her, spazzing over his son. Their son. Dear God, they were having a son... She was getting emotional again, and had to take a deep breath to calm herself down. They were having a child. It was still too much to comprehend. It'd been over four months and she was still having a hard time realizing that she really was pregnant and that there really was going to be a baby in just a few more months.

Leon's comment made her frown a little. Normally, that would make a person smile, but it was almost upsetting to her. If she owned his heart... Damn it, what was this? She had no idea where the two of them stood with each other, what the next step was supposed to be. She knew how she felt, and she knew how he felt, but that didn't mean anything else was going to happen. How could it? This was all so screwed up and she found herself almost wishing she'd never have even opened her mouth.

"Well, this woman would be more than willing to take it if you'd let her," she muttered, more to herself than to Leon, but with that whole vampire hearing thing... she doubted he missed it. Instead of dwelling on that, though, she kept her eyes on him as he touched her stomach, and her grin quickly returned. She couldn't really stay upset when her son was alive and moving around inside of her and Leon was there and everything was still incredible. No matter the situation or the circumstances, this was still incredible.

"Well, I'm pretty awesome. I don't know about you." She was joking, and the laugh that followed showed it. She shook her head and then responded to his later comment. "I know... I'm still a bit shocked myself, to be perfectly honest, but... I think that you are going to be an incredible father. I really do."
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What she said… of course Leon heard what she said. But he pretended not to. Which was stupid, given the fact that she could whisper things and he`d hear them perfectly well. But he just couldn`t bring himself to acknowledge her words and to let her know how he felt about the whole situation. Most of all, because he had no idea how he felt, he didn`t even understand what the situation was. So, apart from a second of his face dropping, nothing changed. He didn`t show a damn thing.

And then he grinned. ”I`m even more awesome than you. Just think about it – I don`t have to sleep. I will be able to be nearby our son all the bloody time.” It was a joke, but at the same time he was dead serious. As he used to be beside Cassie all the time, now he was not going to let the child out of his sight.

Her next words brought an even bigger smile on his face. ”Of course I`m going to be a good father. This is my child. Not being the perfect father would be a crime. And God knows, I’m ready…” He chuckled at his own words, before looking at her softly. ”And you, contrary to what you say now and then, are going to be a great mother. And our son will love you so much he will not know what to do.” To him that was true and it couldn`t be changed. To him everything about her and their son was perfect.

So he kneeled there in silence, still holding his hand on her stomach. If it were for him, Leon would have never moved. But there were things that had to be done, wanted he or not. So, heavily breathing out he pulled up to his feet and moved his hand away from her stomach. One thing he was perfectly clear about – he didn`t want their son to be born to people who have practically no idea who they are. Some confusion after he`s born can`t be avoid, but Leon had to deal with everything else.

Not looking her in the eye, but instead at her stomach he brought up the courage to eventually talk about it. ”So… I suppose we should have the ‘talk’.” Turning his eyes to her he waited for her reaction. Cassie was ought to know what he meant – they hadn`t talked about them at all. Their feelings, their future lives, nothing. And that was not the environment a small baby boy should be born in.

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Cassie figured he'd ignore her comment, which was probably for the best because she didn't want to start anything. She didn't want to fight or argue or get stressed out or any of that. Not right now. She'd rather have it be 'not ever,' but she also had come to realize that extended periods of time without them fighting didn't come very often.

Vampires sucked. Sure, he didn't have to sleep, but did he really have to brag? She didn't want to have to leave their son for even five seconds, let alone the whole having to sleep thing. Actually, she was sort of envious that he got to have that time that she didn't. Maybe she'd keep him while she was awake and only let Leon see him when she was asleep. You know, because that wasn't the meanest thing ever and something she'd totally never do.

"Well, I don't have to sleep much," she pointed out. Sure, there was the whole recommended eight hours, but when you live with a vampire, your sleep schedule gets just a bit screwed up. And hers most definitely was, though that really needed to change, especially since she was pregnant. She was sure that sleep deprivation was bad for the baby. "So, I'll get to see him almost as much as you. And I assure you, if I could stay up forever, I wouldn't leave his side either. Being mortal is so inconvenient."

Well, at least he wasn't arguing about being a good father. That would've gotten him a whack in the head. He was right - of course he'd be a good father. Any thought otherwise was insanity. She didn't get to agree with him, before he was talking again and she couldn't hold back the smile on her lips. Her, a great mother? She really hoped so. After everything, all that she'd been through, how much she'd wanted this child, not being a great mother honestly would be a crime. "Thank you," she replied quietly. Maybe what he'd said had been obvious - to him only, of course - but she took it as a compliment, one that she desperately hoped was true.

It was quiet for a while before Leon stood and she looked at him curiously until he spoke. Oh, yes. The talk. The talk to clear things up, make things known. The talk to figure out what the hell was going on with the two of them, because that was something that she really needed to know. If not for her, then for their son. Being unsure of the relationship between his mother and father probably wouldn't be a positive impact on the child, now would it?

"It'd be a nice thing to have, yes," she agreed. The only problem was that she probably wasn't going to like the outcome of this talk. When Leon had something to say, the chances of her liking it were usually slim.[/b]
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”Being mortal is pretty cool.” Leon argued, keeping the light tone up. ’I mean, just imagine how cool you must feel knowing that you`ve made someone who is immortal be so good to you.” As a vampire he was total and complete rubbish. First of all, he was in love with a werewolf. A huge no. Then he was having a child with the said werewolf. Even worse. And eventually, the same werewolf was the reason why he tried to stop eating people. As a vampire he was just a failure, really. But it didn`t bother him one bit.

What did bother him was the need to have the damn talk. Why was it so hard? Maybe that he feared what would happen after it. Now, nothing said and nothing done, it was all pretty good. They didn`t have to think, they could act however they wanted to act. If they defined their relationship, there would appear certain boundaries, rules and it had a potential of going down to hell. Leon made a silent promise to try his best not to let it go down to hell.

”Okay. Let`s talk then.” He dreaded this moment for so long. What was he supposed to say? The same thing all over again – that them being together was wrong, that they broke the promise, that it wasn`t logical, that they fought too much… no. Not this time.

Eventually deciding he looked straight at her. There wasn`t a shadow of a doubt in his face. ”I love you, Cassie. I know that well, I understand that. However, us being together is wrong. You know that. And… god, however I still love you and you are carrying my son. I don`t think we have a choice, no matter how wrong it is.” he needed to hear her thoughts. They needed to define who the hell they were.

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Honestly, Cassie had never thought about it in the way that Leon made it seem. The whole... immortal vampire and mortal wolf thing rarely, if ever, crossed her mind. It was stupid. One would think that after what had happened all those months ago, she'd finally accept that they were different in basically every single way. She still refused to acknowledge it, however unintelligent that was. So, no, she didn't feel cool for it. It didn't matter to her.

The talk was occurring and Cassie was mentally preparing herself for every letdown humanly possible. She expected the usual talk of how the two of them being together was wrong and how they should make sure nothing would happen between the two of them ever again. She was already pregnant, so they'd already crossed the line once, and she was sure that he'd say that no lines could ever be crossed again. They were friends, caught in a messed up situation, with a beautiful miracle to show for it. That was all.

What he actually said, though? That was a major surprise. Was he really saying that he was okay with this now? With them? She wasn't sure what she was going to say anymore, because she was set to argue. She was set to pull out everything she could think of in an effort to keep him around, to have them actually together. Now she wasn't sure what she was supposed to do. She blinked a few times, then nodded.

"You... You know my thoughts on this matter, Leon. You know how I feel..." She sighed. "I'm tired of hiding it. I'm really, really just... tired of it. But this isn't about me, and it's not even about you. I'm sure the both of us could deal with hiding our feelings for each other for forever... But this is not the kind of environment that our son should be raised in. We can't have him... looking at us, being confused about what the hell is even going on between us... It's not healthy, Leon. And honestly, I'm getting to the point where I don't much give a damn how wrong it is, anyway... I just... It hurts to pretend that I don't love you."

Was it wrong to say that? Oh well. She shrugged her shoulders. They could keep playing pretend if that was what he really wanted, but she didn't want to... And he wasn't her main priority anymore. No, at this point, her main priority was her son. At this point, she'd have risked her life a million times just for that little baby boy. He might not have been born yet, but he was still her child, and she loved him more than she could even begin to try to express. He was already her life. And really, this was the life she wanted, was it not? An amazing man, a child... Everything she'd ever wanted. Sure, it came in a ridiculously complicated way, but it was still amazing. It was still perfect.
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They had talked about it times before, or so it felt to Leon. Most of their fights were about having feelings for each other but not admitting them. Either because it was wrong, or because they weren`t supposed to have them, or because Leon was just plain damn scared to let her know how he felt. But all of those times, he was the one, telling her they shouldn`t continue the relationship and Cassie had always been the one to tell him to forget everything and just do it.

That conversation was supposed to go exactly like all of them did before, but it didn`t. Leon was tired of it, tired of having to pretend and to tell her not to feel, why he wanted her to feel that way. Also, he had a taste of what arguing with Cassie at this state could do, and he did not want that to repeat. Ever again.

To top it all off, she said she loved him and he couldn`t resist it anymore. ”Fine.” He spoke softly, looking down at her. ”Let`s stop pushing each other away and pretending. Let`s allow ourselves to feel and express those feelings. And yes, you`re right. It`s not about us as much as it is about our son.” Except that it was about them in a way. It had always been about them.

Leon remembered the reason why they were in Mungos in the first place – because of her dream. The dream of Jake being furious with her and blaming her for… well, he wasn`t exactly sure. She never told him what it was that she dreamt that day. But he hoped that this agreement would not cause the same outcome. ”Let`s just… live for a bit, okay?” He suggested, smiling.

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Somehow, even though Leon had started it all off saying that he loved her and that - regardless of how wrong it was - they should do it anyway, she still figured that he'd tell her no. That he'd freak out, say it was too wrong, and just end the entire conversation right there. That was exactly what she'd been expecting. However... that wasn't what happened. He actually agreed with her?

Cassie caught herself staring at him in disbelief - him agreeing with her never happened, especially not when it involved something like this. After a moment of complete shock, she was finally able to let out a smile. They weren't going to pretend anymore. Their feelings for each other could be out in the open now and they wouldn't have to try so hard to contain them. Neither one of them was good at controlling themselves anyway, so this was probably a good thing.

"I like that idea." As much as she loved the idea, though, a smart idea would probably be to take it all slowly. Not rush into anything. Take their time. But hell, what fun was that? Taking things slowly was for people who cared about the consequences, and Cassie had never been one to think rationally on any of that. "He likes it too. It's funny, he seems to move around a lot more when you're close. When you're off feeding or something, he's usually pretty quiet... You should name him, so we can actually refer to him with a name instead of 'he' or 'the baby.'"

Exerting the creativity required to name a child took way too much effort. At least, right now, she just didn't feel like it. Besides, she got the blessing of getting to carry him around for nine months. Leon had the right to be able to name him.

At his last statement, Cas nodded. Live for a bit. Right. "Can we 'live for a bit' at home?" she asked, a frown forming on her lips. "I mean, I think I'm well enough to leave. And even if I'm not, I'll be completely fine, I promise. I'm just really tired of being here..."
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When Cassie started staring at him in disbelief, Leon couldn`t help it and he chuckled. The change in him was obvious, but it was natural, because the change that that baby meant was enormous. He shrugged. ”I know it sounds weird, but it seems that any reason not to be together has been wiped away. So… why not?” It didn`t mean that all the guilt and all the blame has gone away. It just meant that now they could do what they wanted to do.

Now, on the other hand, naming their child was a responsibility Leon didn`t think to deserve. ”Name him?” he repeated, shaking his head slightly. Even if he would name their child, Cassie just would not go along with it. Besides, who said that he was good with names? ”Cassie, you are his mother, it should be your decision… or ours. Just… I really don`t think I can just go out there and name him.” How did people get their names at all? It seemed such a huge deal.

At her question if they could go home, Leon looked around. At the time they were the only ones in the room and he smiled softly. ”I`m sure you want to go home, but we can`t just ‘do it’. I don`t feel like risking it.” He explained. ”So, wait here and I`ll be right back.” With that he took a few steps, turned around and left through the door.

Coming back a few moments later he had a smile on his face. ”Your Healer said that you should stay here for a couple more days.” He began, while still walking to the bed. ”However, if you feel like it, we can go. We`ll just need to make sure that you are taken care of and kept calm.”

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Exactly - why not? She'd been asking herself that same question for a while. Why not be with him? Because of some promise? She'd already expressed how stupid that promise was. Keep her safe for a while, then ditch her? Not let her think of anything of her old life, make sure she never associated with any vampires or anything else? What kind of a promise was that, anyway? It was stupid. Completely and utterly stupid.

"Good, 'cause I wasn't going to try to convince you it was okay again. This time, I was just gonna whack you if you didn't agree." Though she was laughing about it, she really was serious. If he was going to argue with her this time, he deserved to get whacked. After all, by now he should have realized that she is always right. Ha. Not even.

He was declining to name him, because... she was his mother? Cassie blinked, then shook her head. "Leon, being his mother absolutely does not give me any more right to him than you. If you don't want to name him, then fine, we'll do it together. But he's not my son - he's ours. And besides, we have plenty of time to figure out a name. He's not due until March."

Cassie frowned as Leon said that they couldn't just get up and leave right away. But she wanted to. She'd been there long enough, hadn't she? It'd been weeks. Now, she totally understood that any pregnancy in her body was automatically high-risk, but she was sure that she'd be fine at home. At least at home, she could rest and eat something that wasn't hospital food. Well, at least Leon was going to check for her and not just tell her no.

Cassie was already groaning in annoyance when he first started speaking. A couple more days? Why didn't she just move in? They could just keep an eye on her right up until the second she gave birth or something. How stupid. But then, when she shut up and let him finish, he offered words of hope. Home? She could go home, if she thought she was ready? Her excitement was cut short a moment later as a realization hit her and she frowned.

"As amazing as home would be... do... do you think I'm ready?" she asked, her frown deepening even more. "I mean, I feel ready. I feel more than ready, but if there is a single doubt in your mind... I just don't want to risk hurting him again."
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Leon smiled softly. They had really fought a lot about whether they should be together or if they shouldn`t. And he had always been the one to say that they shouldn`t. However, it was reasonable and he still stood his ground that they should have never done what they had and that it would be better if they stayed together. But things changed and therefore ignoring their emotions would only be for the worse. Leon swore to do everything in her favor from that moment on. ”Things change. It`s not the same like it used to be.” He explained calmly.

Naming the child was not what Leon felt he could do. No, he knew the exact name for their son, but he wasn`t sure if he could ever even suggest it. That depended if after the birth she would still talk to him. So, he`d rather she name him, in order not to have to fight anymore. ”Together?” Hm, that could work. So, he nodded. ”Okay. We`ll take a big book some evening and go through the names in it looking for the right one.” He smiled.

Getting back home sounded awesome. Leon had missed the flat, had missed the TV and the ability to go to the shower whenever he needed. The white walls in Mungos were depressing and he was tired of having to deal with healers, Acolytes and their point of view when it came to vampires being in the hospital. Home, if anything, sounded like heaven.

At her question he laughed silently. ”I think you`re more than ready, dear. You look and you sound ready, too.” he reasoned, leaning down and planting a kiss on her forehead. If she wanted to leave, he couldn`t be more happy. ”Doubts?” He repeated and shook his head. ”I believe in you.” Smiling he walked to a bag lying on the floor and pulled out jeans and a blouse. Ready for anything. Bringing the clothes to Cassie he placed them in her lap. ”I felt like this day may come.”

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When she'd first found out she was pregnant, her reaction was automatically possessive. It was her baby. Her child. She was going to be a mother. She kept kicking Leon out of the whole picture, acting as if he wasn't important in it at all. But it was his son, too. Maybe not biologically, as she'd found out, and yes that guilt was killing her, but she was determined to stop leaving him out of everything. Yes, she was the pregnant one, but that didn't make him less important. That was why Cassie was going to make sure they did this all together. That was why she just didn't want to come up with a random name and have Leon just deal with it. That was why she wanted to work at it together. Maybe they'd find something good, something that meant something. And besides, she already had a giant baby name book somewhere, so she was totally up for that.

When she got Leon's confirmation on whether or not she was ready to leave, Cassie's excitement was nearly overwhelming. She could go home. She could really go home. She could sleep in a comfortable bed, watch television whenever she wanted, make a ton of food for no reason since she was the only one that ate... Life could be good again. And sure, staying in the hospital wasn't that bad. She was well taken care of, but it wasn't like this was a vacation. Wasn't the whole thing, when dealing with a 'high-risk pregnancy,' as they'd called it, to get lots of rest? Yeah, staying at the hospital stressed her out - it was the opposite of rest.

"If you think I'm ready, then yes, I want out of here," she said, grinning as Leon placed clothes in her lap. Real clothes. Not an ugly hospital gown. For the first time in what seemed like forever, she could wear real clothing! It was so exciting that it was pathetic. "You are amazing. Now turn around so I can get dressed." Not that it mattered. They'd already slept together - obviously - so aside from making sure Leon didn't go all 'hormonal vampire' in the middle of the hospital, Cas really didn't care. So, once she was dressed, she tossed the evil hospital gown onto the bed and looked back over at him. "All ready. You know, you should totally learn to cook something really awesome. You know, so I can have a 'welcome home' dinner or something without having to make it for myself."
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