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| Leon Goodwill | Oct 2 2010, 10:20 PM Post #1 |
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One more hour and Leon was officially going to go crazy. Everything was way too much. When he brought Cassie to Mungos, she was immediately taken away by Healers (for that he was more than thankful) but after that there was only silence. He spent what felt like ages in the lobby, walking back and forth, forbidding himself to panic or to give into what he was feeling. His face was ice cold, his jaw clenched and his eyes fixed on one place as he kept walking to the end of the room, then turned around and got back. After literally hours he was told in which room she was. However as he got there, it turned out that he wasn`t allowed in the room, that everything wasn`t finished yet. That meant more torture. Healers he caught in the corridor and the receptionist and basically everybody else refused to tell him how was she. Was she okay, was the child okay, was everything better? God, he would have even taken the answer that it was ‘critical’. Still, that meant having hope. Now as he knew absolutely nothing he was slowly losing it. What if their child was gone? What if they both were gone?! Leon felt how his stomach turned and he suddenly stopped, staring right in front of him. That thought hadn`t crossed his mind before. He only realized that their child was in danger, but now it was obvious that Cassie was in danger just as well. Leon took few deep breaths but it didn`t help. He felt panic getting up his body, slowly taking over his ability to move his feet, his hands and eventually grasping his throat. Spending few minutes as still as rock he realized that if he allowed that to continue, it could end in disaster. He could literally lose his mind. Suddenly turning around he walked to the nearest toilet and locked himself in it. Turning on the water in the sink he placed his hands under the cold stream, but it didn`t help much. Everything that happened before seemed like a big dream. The fight in the flat, the way she woke up, the way she curled up and… blood. Her blood. That part he tried most to block out. As he got to Mungos his shirt was covered in blood and if not the bag he took from home, he would still be walking around like that. Leon felt how a cold shiver went down his body, making his hands tremble. Leaning down to the sink he splashed the cold water on his face, placed his hands on the white sink and gripped it, squeezing his eyes shut. It couldn`t happen and it wouldn`t. He wouldn`t lose either of them. His body trembled once more. No, he refused to even think about the possibility of losing someone. But what if this was some kind of revenge for all that he had done? What if he brought it upon both of them? All the promises he broke, all the lies he made, all the people he killed… He deserved to lose the woman he loved and their child for what he had done, and nothing less. It must have been his punishment for all the wrong he did. It would explain things after all. ”No.” Leon suddenly spoke out loud, raising his head and stabbing his eyes at the mirror. ”It won`t happen.” He added, before turning away. He hated to see his reflection and to know what he had become. His hands still shaking slightly he ran them through his hair, water drops rolling down his face, plopping on his shirt and soaking it. They will live, simply because they had to. Because they couldn`t leave him like that. He left the toilet and came back by the door of Cassie`s room. Everything still felt like a dream, a nightmare. The white walls were driving him crazy. Suddenly an image of a baby crib that he noticed in one of the shops came to his mind. It was one of those old fashioned cribs, with curtains that had white ribbons on it. He felt sick, realizing that it may never come true. All those baby toys he wanted to buy, all those clothes… all those images of him playing with his child, or watching Cassie doing that. It all may never come true and he wanted to scream out in desperation. How could everyone be so cruel to leave him in such silence? But once again Leon managed to push all those thoughts out of his head. This time he had to use more desperate measures – walking to one of the walls he bumped his head against it. Since it wasn`t enough he hit his fist instead. The pain was about right to leave him with a moment of peace, without those tormenting images. Taking a hoarse breath in he closed his eyes and let his forehead rest against the cold white wall. They couldn`t leave him like that. They wouldn`t. |
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| Cassie Davis | Oct 3 2010, 05:41 PM Post #2 |
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It would be impossible to describe the exact way that Cassie felt as Leon carried her to the hospital. The thought of losing her child was the only thing on her mind as he rushed there, her arms wrapped as tightly as they could be around his neck, holding on for dear life. Literally. Her body wasn't meant for pregnancy. She knew this. Ever since that fall eight years ago, everything had been so messed up her body literally couldn't handle a tiny life bouncing around in there. Hell, she wasn't supposed to even be able to get pregnant. She'd beat the odds twice after that, but it never lasted, because something she did always ruined it. She mouthed off to Jordan, she lost her baby. The full moon came around, she lost her baby. Now, Jake blamed her for his death in a dream, for Merlin's sake, and she was going to lose her baby. Maybe her need to beat the odds was going to be the reason everything fell apart. The Healers had taken her from Leon and straight into a room, leaving him to sit and wait until she was ready for him to come back there. It wasn't fair. She'd whimpered at first, reaching out to try to pull him with her as they led her away. How on earth was she supposed to be even relatively calm, calm enough for them to do anything, when he was out there? She didn't care about their earlier fight - this was his child, too. To say that she'd been near hysterics would be quite the understatement. She was crying, yelling something incoherent, begging them to please just save her baby. It wasn't about her; she'd live regardless. She always did, didn't she? No matter what happened, she was always left alone to live in the absence of the person that was gone. Most of the time, that person's departure was her fault. She'd killed all of her babies, hadn't she? She was the reason Jake was dead, and Caitlin, and - "Miss Davis, we're going to need you to lay still, okay?" Oh. She'd been moving again, struggling against the Healers unintentionally as the new wave of memories had hit her. How was she supposed to really lay still? Her baby was dying and hell, a miscarriage couldn't be stopped once it was started... Well, that was generally speaking. They had magic on their side, so maybe... "Just save my baby." The whisper fell from her lips quiet and shaky, her voice unstable. "Just... Just save... Please." There was no getting full sentences out anymore, as she gripped the edges of the hospital bed tightly, trying to pull herself together just enough so that the Healers could do their job. "I want Leon..." "We're doing everything we can." That hadn't answered her. Did that mean that this was much worse than she thought, if they still wouldn't let him in? She was panicking again; how long did they expect her to wait for answers? But they were doing everything they could, everything they could do to help her. Help her baby. But what if that wasn't enough? What if they couldn't save it? |
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| Leon Goodwill | Oct 3 2010, 07:25 PM Post #3 |
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Three paragharps, forty five lines, one thousand four hundred twenty eight words, the word ‘will’ mentioned twenty two times, the word ‘and’ mentioned three hundred eleven times… that was the exact count of everything on some advertisement hanging on the wall. Leon had no idea what the advertisement was about, or why, but he tried to calm himself by reading it, memorizing it, counting meaningless things on it. However, when he had counted and three times recounted everything it lost it`s appeal. He felt sick, what was amusing since he barely had anything except for that half bottle of beer that day. His insides were driving him mad and his heart wouldn`t calm, at moments beating way too fast and at others basically slowing down to a beat in a minute. His breathing was completely off and every face that passed him in a corridor was blurry. Probably that was how Muggles felt when they overdosed on something. She was there. Inside. Just one door away from him. And yet he was helplessly standing in the corridor, staring at the door like it was his true mortal enemy. She was right there and he didn`t even know if she was alive. God, if they were alive. He had no idea and he forbid himself to think about what would he do if he`d lose them. He`d lose his purpose and his reason. Yes, before his purpose was just to help her and then vanish from her life, but by those two words ‘I`m pregnant’ everything changed and his purpose became to take care of her and their child, to be with them as long as they would be alive. As the door opened Leon suddenly tensed up, staring intensely at who will walk out. For one foolish moment he imagined that Cassie was going to walk out, smiling at him, telling him that everything was okay and they could go back to the flat and stop worrying. However, it wasn`t Cassie, but a Healer. Leon immediately jumped to him, grabbing his arm. ”How is she? How`s the baby? Is everything okay? Will they live? Is something wrong?” The questions came out in few seconds, his eyes desperately searching for an answer in the other man`s eyes. But the Healer didn`t seem to be a very pleasant one. He looked at him with disgust. ”We only give information to relatives.” He only answered coldly and Leon stared at him doubtfully. What? He shook his head, clinging on the man`s arm even tighter. ”I`m the baby`s father!” he exclaimed, just as desperately and needy as before. It didn`t work. The disgust was still on the Healers face as he tugged his arm roughly out from his and took a step back. ”You`re a vampire.” he spat out with a huge amount of disgust and loathe in his voice and looked down at him. ”And there`s blood.” The healer didn`t bother saying anything else. He turned around and hurried down the corridor, leaving Leon standing in the middle of it, staring absently at the back of the man. This was the last drop. How come he didn`t bite the healers head right off was a real mystery to Leon. But he couldn`t help it anymore. No matter what everyone said or did, he couldn`t take another second standing in the corridor like an idiot, having no idea what was going on and if there was someone left to be worried about. Determined he stepped to the door and opened it, immediately catching everyone`s attention. ”You can`t be here! Get out!” Some Acolyte squeaked at him, but he merely ignored it. He wasn`t really even sure if someone said it or if he only imagined it. His eyes were stabbed at the bed, where he knew that Cassie lay. He wasn`t looking around, he didn`t care if there was blood, or what was she wearing, cause his eyes were stuck on her face. As some man healer placed his hands on Leon`s shoulders and tried to push him out, Leon just kept walking forwards, pushing the man out of the way. Finally reaching the bed he basically collapsed, falling on his knees, grabbing Cassie`s hand and pressing his lips to her palm. Nothing made sense anymore, his mind was clouded, but he knew she was there. He knew she was alive, even if the smell of blood was lingering in the air. Taking a deep shuddering breath he pressed his forehead against her pal, hanging his head down. "Cassie…” He only whispered, forgetting to breathe once again. Edited by Leon Goodwill, Oct 3 2010, 07:25 PM.
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| Cassie Davis | Oct 3 2010, 08:49 PM Post #4 |
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There was a clock on the wall somewhere. Cassie couldn't find it, but she could hear it. Every single 'tick' entered her ears, as if counting down all the time that there was left. It felt like hours of silence between every noise, as if time had slowed down, leaving her in painful agony and not showing any sign of upcoming relief. Despite everything, that clock was getting on her nerves, and she wanted to rip it from the wall, throw it to the floor and stomp on it. How many hours had it been now? Had it even been that long? Maybe it'd really only been minutes, and time was just pretending to be slow again. If she could only see that clock... Tick. A Healer was leaving the room, but she barely acknowledged it. Her eyes had closed, lids shut tightly together as she tried to ignore all that was happening. In her mind, she was with Leon in the flat. They were happy, and their child was crawling around on the floor as they sat and played with it. There was a small puppy curled up on the couch, though it knew that it wasn't supposed to sleep there. Dinner was in the oven, and the scent of delicious food filled the flat. Tick. Damn that clock, tearing her away from her daydream. Her eyes opened again, met with the blinding white walls and many blurred faces of Healers. Wasn't it time to tell her what was going on yet? Wasn't it time to go home? To go home, and be perfectly healthy, and to have a perfectly healthy baby? Why wouldn't they say anything? Tick. "Damn it, will someone just get rid of the damn clock already?!" It was the first coherent, first full sentence she'd said since she'd arrived. The Healers looked startled for a moment, before the eyes of one softened as she said quietly, "Miss Davis... There aren't any clocks in here." It was in her head. That damn clock was in her head, slowly driving her insane, and counting down how long it'd take for her to receive the bad news. Counting down how long it'd take for them to tell her that her baby hadn't made it, and that neither would she. Counting down until her death, because regardless of whether she lived or not... she wouldn't really be alive, would she? There was more to living than just being alive, and without her baby, she'd never be able to truly live again. There was the sound of a door opening, and her eyes went to it immediately, expecting the Healer who'd left to come back with some grave news about some test result, but it wasn't him. There was Leon, walking in as Healers tried to push him away. Why wouldn't they just let him stay? He was the father, for Merlin's sake. He needed to be there. "He stays," she told the Acolyte, reiterating it a bit firmer as another Healer tried pushing him away. "He stays." He was at her side then, getting past the others and holding her hand tightly. She broke down then. Any chance she had of holding it together before was instantly shattered the second his hand touched hers. She squeezed it, turning her head to look down at him. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry..." She was blaming herself again, acting as though it was her fault. Had she never kissed Leon, she'd have never slept with him, which would have made her never get pregnant, so she'd never have the dream, and everything would be okay. This was her fault. "They won't tell me anything, I don't know... what's going on..." She choked over her sobs, every word more muffled than the next as the tears flowed freely down her face. "I'm so sorry..." Tick. |
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| Leon Goodwill | Oct 3 2010, 09:15 PM Post #5 |
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There was only one goal Leon hoped to achieve by barging into the room – to see if Cassie was alive. He thought that after seeing her, making sure that she was alive he could calmly turn around and go back to the corridor, to wait for the news. But he was wrong for he had forgotten how it all might affect him. Seeing her on the hospital bed, surrounded by healers, so pale and freaking out… he forgot that there was no way he could leave her like that. Gripping her hand desperately he was certain that nothing could pull him away from her. Not even a freaking tornado or a Death Eater attack. Not even ~censored~ Joanna appearing in the room out of no where. He was going to stay there. However, when she began apologizing, he just couldn`t deal with it. Still holding her hand he jumped up and looked down at her, completely ignoring everyone else in the room as if they didn`t even exist. ”Stop it!” He told her firmly, gripping her hand. Keeping calm and firm was a way not to lose it. ”There is nothing you need to be sorry about, this is NOT your fault!” He had no idea whose fault it was, actually. But her sobs were breaking his heart, slowly breaking his strength down. Leaning down to her he cupped her face with one of his hands and looked directly at her eyes. ”Look at me, Cassie…” He spoke softly, trying to calm her down. ”Everything is going to be okay. I promise you that. Everything will be okay and we will be home in no time…” God, there was no way to say how much he hoped that what he said was true. He believed it desperately, but back deep in his mind there was this tiny little voice that kept telling him how it may not be alright. How their baby could die, how she could die, how they could die… He was thinking about it again. What helped him to snap out of it was someone`s grip on his shoulder. Firm grip, trying to pull him away. Well, it worked. Leon pulled away from Cassie, and turned to glare at whoever dared to do so. Seeing the same Healer he had bumped into in the corridor the situation changed drastically. He realized that no one was going to let him stay, it was a fact, but it also was a fact that he was NOT going to leave the room. His face changed in seconds, the distressed and scared expression disappearing instead appearing something far more scary – the expression of a predator. One that always affected people, that made blood freeze in their veins because it was the look of death. Leon took it even further, by hissing at the man, showing his fangs to him. Damn, he didn`t care that he was acting like an animal, but if scaring him was the only way to do it, he was going to. Healer`s eyes went wide as he took a step back, putting his arms in front of himself in defense. It wasn`t needed, though. After Leon hissed ”I`m staying,” in a very low and dangerous voice he quickly turned back into whom he really was. And that moment he was a terrified man, looking down at a woman that he loves, who carries his child and who might die, taking everything away with herself. ”Cassie… oh God…” He whispered, biting down on his lip, to keep his feelings in check. His hand, shuddering slightly, brushed over her hair and he blinked few times, trying to stay strong. ”...don`t leave me… please...” It was his basic wish. As horrible as it was, he knew that if they lost the child, they could get over it, but he couldn`t think about losing her. Edited by Leon Goodwill, Oct 3 2010, 09:15 PM.
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| Cassie Davis | Oct 3 2010, 09:49 PM Post #6 |
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Cassie had thought that seeing Leon, having him beside her, would make this all easier. In reality? It almost hurt her worse, realizing that it wasn't just her child she was killing, it was theirs. Their child. Their little boy or girl. The one that had a good chance of never making it outside of that hospital room. She was crying again, gripping his hand tighter with every new wave of tears that fell from her eyes. "I shouldn't have... fought with you..." She couldn't calm down, couldn't breathe correctly, and she was sure that none of that was good for the baby. How was she supposed to calm down, though? How was she supposed to do anything but panic when lives were on the line? It figured that, after everything, this would be the one time that her strength failed. The one time that she'd give in and let the grief overtake her, not even trying hard to fight it. She needed to stay calm, but it wasn't working. Leon's hand cupped her face and her eyes met his, his just as full of fear as hers were, minus the tears. The panic was there, though. The worry. He was terrified. And the words he spoke? She couldn't believe them, couldn't believe that they were true. He didn't know that everything would be okay. He didn't know anything. Neither of them did. Despite arguing that fact, though, as would be usual if the circumstance were different, instead she choked out a panicked, "I love you." Because if she died, if for some reason she didn't make it, she wanted him to know. She didn't hate him. She could never. The Healer that had left was back and was trying to pull Leon away by force. Had this been a different situation, Cassie would have thrown something at him for even thinking of taking him out of the room. But this was different. This was too serious for her usual childishness. And so, she let Leon take care of it, before looking at the man he'd scared. "He's... not going anywhere. And I want to know... exactly what's going on.. or you'll be the one... getting kicked out." Oh, hey, there was her attitude. Funny it'd find its way into her speech even at a time like this. But that didn't mean she was okay. She was still barely breathing, and every word emptied her lungs of their oxygen. But he was there. He was there beside her, brushing her hair back and quietly begging her not to go. "I'm... not going anywhere..." Wishful thinking? Maybe. But forcing the thought into her brain would eventually, probably make her feel a little more secure. She searched for his hand again, holding it tightly in her own and absolutely refusing to let go. He wasn't going anywhere. It didn't matter what the Healers said, she wouldn't let him leave. "But I'm so scared..." |
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| Leon Goodwill | Oct 3 2010, 10:29 PM Post #7 |
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”No, no, Cassie, shhhh…” Leon murmured, shaking his head at her words. He couldn`t disagree more. He knew that he couldn`t cause her any stress, he knew it might be fatal and even knowing all that he fought with her, hurt her on purpose, just because he thought he couldn`t handle her being close. Now she was blaming herself for the fight? God, she was the one with all the crazy hormones, he wouldn`t have blamed her if she randomly started beating him up with a table. ”It was my responsibility to make sure that you`d be okay…” Wasn`t it? He wasn`t the one carrying their child. He was so foolish for starting the fight about the blood. Fine, he may have disagreed, but he could have agreed and talked about it calmly, or he could have lied to her, just for her own sake! But no, he had to do the stupid thing, go and act like it mattered how he felt and what he did. Jerk, total idiot, asshole and so much more. No, if they got through this, there could be no more fighting. His hand was trembling while he held hers and there was nothing he could do about it. He was terrified, and usually such fear would only last one second, but this wasn`t the case, it held him in it`s tight grip, not letting him go, but from time to time even squeezing him harder. There was nothing Cassie had to do, but just stay alive and keep the child and he`d be happy for the upcoming century. However, she decided to do something that made him freeze in one spot, made his heart stop beating and made him forget to breathe for the third time that day. There was nothing else he did, but just stared down at her, his hand still on her face, not a cell in his body moving. The lack of oxygen got to him and he took a deep breath in, clearing his throat. ”Don`t say that.” What was weird was that when she told him she loved him, he felt fear. More fear. Which he couldn`t understand until that moment. ”People say that when they don`t think that they will have a chance to say it later and you will, you have tons of chances, not this one.” That was the reason. He realized her motives so clearly it scared him. Of course it brought more feelings than fear, feelings that made his eyes go wide and eventually his heart beat faster, but fear was above it all. She thought she might die. Just as he did, she realized that she might die and there was nothing either of them could do and so she told him something that would have been impossible to say under any other circumstances. But now as she realized there may be no other chance she said it and… oh God. He couldn`t allow that to happen. She could barely speak, tears and sobs being not the only thing that disturbed her. She looked weak, pale and in pain. And Leon suffered greatly knowing that there was not a damn thing he could do to help her while she thought these might be her last minutes. His fingers trembled against her hair and he fought back the urge to grip onto them, to pull her close, to hold her close to his body and keep her like that for forever, safe from the outside world, helping to calm the hurricane inside him. ”You can`t leave me… you just can`t.” His voice trembled now even more. At times he`d forget how frail she was. Maybe a werewolf, but still human most of the time. She wasn`t immortal and never would be. He`d lose her eventually, no mater what. He`d lose their child, no matter what. ”Not now… not now…” Leon didn`t know what his lips murmured, because life stopped making sense. When she took his hand again he squeezed it, trying to stay as strong as possible, because he couldn`t break down, because she needed him more than ever. He had to be strong for her and for their child, he had to be the one to calm her down and keep her safe. He failed to do so once, but he couldn`t fail again. He had to do anything in his power to be there for her. ”I know, Cassie, I know. But we`ll make it. All three of us. We will make it.” His voice didn`t sound as firm as he wanted to. But how could it if he hardly believed himself? |
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| Cassie Davis | Oct 4 2010, 10:35 PM Post #8 |
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This would have been a lot easier if Cassie knew exactly what was going on. No, it wouldn't have made her happier, but it'd have been easier. She could breathe a little easier, her nerves would be a little better. But they weren't saying anything at all to her. The grave looks on the faces of the Healers around her told her that this was a lot more than a possible miscarriage. You couldn't really die from miscarrying, could you? Yet, they kept looking at her like she didn't have a chance left. "And it was my responsibility to agree with you and not fight," she responded, her hand squeezing his tighter as she felt it begin to tremble. He was scared, and she couldn't do a single thing to comfort him, because she was scared as well. She had a ton of questions, and none of which were given answers. What was going on? Was her baby okay? Would she be okay? Why did they keep looking at her like that? He saw her reasoning in what she'd admitted way too easily. He wouldn't even accept it, wouldn't hear it at all. If she was saying that, he already knew she was just making sure he knew. Just in case. Had the circumstance been different, Leon telling her not to that it would have started a fight. Cassie would have gotten angry, saying something about how he was an idiot for pushing her so far away, when she wanted so desperately to be near to him. He'd have tried to convince her that it wasn't right, that they couldn't be together in such way, and she'd have disagreed. It always happened that way, didn't it? "No, I need you to know," she argued, shaking her head slightly. He wouldn't get her to shut up if this was all the time they had. "I need you to know that I care about you. That you're important to me, and that I love you. Don't tell me not to say that." Her voice was trying to be firm, but that was nearly impossible. Watching him like that, so scared, hurt her. And if he was that scared... Damn it, if the Healers would just tell her anything... Even if they were just telling her she only had a few hours left to live, at least it was something. At least she'd know, and she could be prepared. Try to prepare. But the suspense was eating her alive. "I sure hope you're right," she told him, her voice now failing miserably at any chance of staying calm. It wavered, and a shaky breath followed. Breathing seemed to keep getting more difficult. "We have to... All three of us. We just have to." "Excuse me, sir." The voice of a Healer interrupted them as she laid a gentle hand on Leon's shoulder. "Can you come with me out in the hallway for a moment?" She was, in no way, kicking him out, but there were things he needed to know. Things she wasn't quite ready to tell Cassie yet. |
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| Leon Goodwill | Oct 5 2010, 04:12 AM Post #9 |
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Leon felt like all words had lost it`s meaning, because no matter what he said nothing changed. No matter what he did, Cassie still blamed herself, he blamed himself, Cassie was scared like never, he was scared so much he could hardly control his body and it`s functions. Then why bother to try and speak if it didn`t help, but only made him feel more and more helpless, for every word pointed out how useless it was and that he had nothing left but words. Unfortunately, the same thing applied to having to continue speaking. Yes, he had nothing left but words. And he wasn`t going to lose that one last thing, because he had to grasp something and to hold onto it. ”No…” He murmured, looking down at her, fighting with himself all the time in order not to break down. ”People fight all the time. They don`t miscarry, though. This was just…. just…” He ran out of words. This was what? Horrible, cruel, unjust, awful, scary? Those words didn`t fit in. Every second that went by took more and more of his strength to keep whole away. Because every second added up to the fear he was already feeling. More fear, meant more panicking and more panicking meant thinking about things that he shouldn`t, imagining their future like he shouldn`t. Eventually the right word came to his mind. ”Something we`ll get through with… and be stronger.” That was how he was supposed to think, to know that nothing can take her away from him. However, it didn`t help, for images of her cold body kept creeping into his head. Why she was so persistent with making him know how she felt? Why did she have to be so damn persistent?! She wouldn`t be like that if she felt that there was a chance, a way, if she felt that they would get through with it like he tried to make her believe. But she knew the truth. No one told her, yet she felt that this might be the end, and it scared him more than ever. As pathetic as it was, by that point he hardly controlled his sorrow which tried to get out in the shape of tears. But he wouldn`t let that happen and he swallowed loudly. Cassie knew she might die. God, she felt it. ”Okay…” he whispered with a small nod, his hand moving to her hair again, trembling far more than before. ”Okay…” He whispered again, desperately searching her eyes to find at least a small doubt in there, but there were none. Leon nodded, losing the strength to speak for few moments, because he required it all to control his emotions and not give into them. ”You know that I…” It was so hard to say it, because it felt final. If he said it, that meant that he admitted the fact that she might die, that she probably was going to die. Everything felt like it was set on a repeat button. Saving her from one horror he managed to put her under another one. ”You know that I love you… so much…” Leon eventually did say it. He eventually admitted it out loud – Cassie could die and there was nothing he could do about it. She could die, taking their child away with herself, taking away everything that was his life that moment. When someone put a hand on his shoulder he almost jumped up - he had forgotten that they weren`t alone in the room, that it was full of others. Turning to face the healer he wasn`t really sure what was going on, because everything felt unreal. What she said took him a few seconds to sink in, few seconds for him to understand it properly. He wanted answer, but he knew that if she didn`t want to say it nearby Cassie, something wasn`t right. It wasn`t ‘good news’ was it? Looking back at Cassie he leaned over her, pressing his lips to her forehead, basically wincing at the same time. God, please don`t let it end like that… ”I`ll be right back…” He murmured, using his last pieces of strength to pull up to his feet completely. Turning away from Cassie and walking towards the hallway had to be one of the most difficult things he had ever done. What if she`d be dead when he came back? What if there was no time already and he`d waist those precious seconds while talking with the Healer? Yet, somehow, he managed to walk out of the room and into the white hallway. His face dead he turned to look at the other woman. |
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| Emery Tallis | Oct 5 2010, 05:04 AM Post #10 |
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wrong account.
Edited by Emery Tallis, Oct 5 2010, 05:04 AM.
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| Cassie Davis | Oct 5 2010, 05:05 AM Post #11 |
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If people fought all the time while pregnant and absolutely nothing happened to them, Cassie envied those people. After everything, all that she'd put her body through, all that had happened to her, she apparently needed a never-ending calmness while pregnant. Like that was possible. After all, she'd tried so hard. Maybe it was the ice cream. She'd only had it twice, and the rest she'd eaten super healthy, but what if it was that little bit of sugar that was causing problems to her child? "Don't say that." Had she more strength, her voice would have been cold, angered by the way he was speaking. Instead, it came out as a weak whisper, because she wasn't able to put that sort of force behind it. "My ba- Our baby is going to be just fine." Cassie was always possessive over the child that grew inside of her. Sharing the one thing she'd always wanted with someone else wasn't on her list of things to do, or at least, it hadn't been with Leon. The fact that she was correcting herself and not shutting him out like normal? Well, she wasn't sure how to feel about that. Leon wasn't arguing with her anymore. He'd accepted her words, and she was grateful for that. The last thing either of them really needed was an argument over her love for him. And sure, maybe she'd have never said it if the circumstance were different, but it wasn't. It wasn't different, so he had to know. And he loved her... How ironic was that? It was never supposed to happen, not even for a second. Hell, maybe she didn't really love him. Maybe it was only the hormones. But no, that wasn't it. It could never be. "I know..." And she did. Knowing that made her feel better. Only slightly, but it was enough to make a difference. Seeing that a Healer was trying to pull Leon away only meant that this wasn't good. If they wouldn't even tell her anything, and they were telling him something? Technically, he wasn't family, so he wasn't supposed to know anything. He shouldn't even be in the room! When she lived? She was suing them for releasing information, only because they told him and not her. Jerks. "Okay..." She watched him leave, frowning as the door shut behind them. The Healer led Leon into the hallway, making sure to close the door behind them both. Most of the others were too afraid to be alone with him - fear of him biting off their heads and all - but her patients always came before herself, and so did he. Didn't he deserve to know what was going on? It was cruel to watch the two of them, so unsure, and so terrified. "We normally don't give out information to anyone other than direct family, but being as though Miss Davis doesn't have contact with her family anymore and you're the baby's father..." Honestly, she wasn't going to even bother to try to figure out how a werewolf and a vampire can successfully make a child, but it was still confusing and silly. A deep breath, then she continued in a soft voice. "Cassie has an infection, stemming in the blood and... slowly making its way around her entire body. Left untreated for long enough, this infection can start shutting down organs until..." She shook her head, before flipping through some papers on her clipboard, before looking up at him again. "It says here that she's been in for check-ups quite a few times in the last few months... The way this infection has spread, there's no way it's just begun. It's been building for months. The glamour spell... can hide a lot more than a few scars and a pregnant belly. There's a good chance that what she looks like in that room is how she's been for quite a while, maybe even before she got pregnant." Relaying bad news was always stressful to her, and she had to take another deep breath before she even thought about continuing. It was killing her to have to say such things when they were just in there a moment ago, professing their love and saying how everything would be okay. Well, they'd try their hardest to make it all be okay. "We're doing everything we can, and we're treating it already. I have a Healer getting some antibiotics right now, and... Well, like I said, we're doing everything we can. There is absolutely always hope." She realized then that she left out everything about the child. The only good news of the day, apparently. "In... slightly better news... She hasn't miscarried, which is a miracle in itself, and we should be able to stop the infection before it reaches..." She was shaking her head again, refusing to even mention that. She was sure he knew where she was going with it, anyway. "Your child is still very much alive and hanging on. You're going to have a fighter on your hands when it's born." She gave him a tiny attempt at an encouraging smile, placing her hand on his shoulder again, this time as comfort. She couldn't even imagine the pain and worry he was going through right now. |
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| Leon Goodwill | Oct 5 2010, 04:47 PM Post #12 |
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Once outside in the corridor, Leon could hardly stand in one place. He felt like he should go back, get to Cassie, be by her side no matter what and just don`t stay away. She needed him that moment more than ever, staying away from her would do her no good, and heavens know what could happen in those few minutes – time suddenly became so damn precious. Few times he seriously thought about just turning around, going back into the room and hearing the news there, because no matter how bad they were, it would be better hearing them while knowing that that moment Cassie was safe. He must have been carrying a dreadful expression, for every person that had to pass him in the corridor tried to push themselves as close to the wall as possible, trying their best not to look at his eyes. Well, he didn`t care how he looked, if his feelings were expressed it was only the right thing, because he could hardly contain everything inside. Those people should have been happy that he wasn`t running around biting at everyone`s necks and killing them… that remind him of something and reaching into his pocket he pulled out his silver flask to take a big gulp. Which was kind of difficult, seeing that by that point his hands were visibly shaking. Taking a deep breath he finally turned to face the healer, getting ready for the worst. And he was thankful to her that she, unlike most of the others, treated him like a person and not a monster. Probably everyone else thought that this was caused by him attacking her or something… However, since he was getting ready for the inevitable ‘she`s dying’ what the Healer said suddenly brought him relief. ”Infection…?” he repeated, swallowing a lump in his throat and nodding. ”But it`s being treated now…” That meant that her organs won`t start ‘shutting down’ right? As it continued, a frown grew on Leon`s face. Though he had calmed down, she was going to live and his body accepted the fact. But what the Healer said just made him a bit pissed. ”Wait, so you`re telling me that she has been sick for quite some time now and no one did a damn thing to help her?!” Or so it sounded like. ”Four check-up are quite enough to notice something that would make her bleed randomly!” And scream in pain and cry and… he couldn`t think about it. But no matter what, the things that the Healer said made everything easier. Especially as she continued and all Leon could do was nod. They were treating her. She was going to be fine then, because it was treatable, she wasn`t dying and they were going to stop the infection or whatever it was that was hurting her. He couldn`t wait to get back and tell her that it really was all fine, because they were going to treat her. And finally as the news went to the baby, he was sure that that was when it was going to turn bad. But he was wrong as a smile spread across his face. ”Of course our child will be a fighter… it`s ought to be.” he said, with the same small, but proud smile. Taking the Healer`s hand off his shoulder he looked directly at her. ”But it`s great news! Why did you ask me to come out? I thought you were going to tell me that she`s dying!” Which was obviously not the case and Leon found himself smiling once again. ”I mean you`re treating her, so her organs won`t fail, so she will be good soon and our child is alive and everything is okay! You scared me to death before!” He exclaimed. |
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| Cassie Davis | Oct 6 2010, 03:56 AM Post #13 |
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She understood how difficult all of this had to be for him. She'd seen so much, so many lives ruined, so many people hurt... It never got any easier. It never got any easier to watch the expressions on the faces of others as they watched their loved ones, lying there on the hospital bed, waiting for some form of results. Some answers. Some... anything. He was angry with her, and she was frowning. She shook her head calmly, instead of getting upset and arguing back. "No, no, I'm not saying that no one did anything to help her," she said, flipping through a few more pages. "She was treated when she came. Whether she decided to continue treatment and fill her prescriptions and whatever else was entirely up to her." He was smiling then, and she had to smile a little bit at that, even though this didn't mean it was all over. It wouldn't be over until they were walking out the door. "I asked you to come out here because, like I said, the infection is spreading. She is... in a sense, dying. But, I do believe you caught this just in time. Had she not come today and instead, this happened a few days in the future? I wouldn't be able to give you any good news at all. But... Given the right care and treatment, she should be ready to come home in just a few days." She took a deep breath, then adopted an even more serious look. It wasn't one that told of anything awful coming, though. That was a change, and one that she definitely liked. She hated having to be the one to tell someone their loved one was dying, or even just a little bit sick. "We're going to make her better. I promise you." |
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| Leon Goodwill | Oct 6 2010, 08:18 PM Post #14 |
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Leon suddenly frown at the Healers words. ”Then she knew?” He asked her, looking at her closely. That meant that if Cassie knew she chose not to tell him. At any other day he would have gotten angry or at least annoyed that she didn`t tell him something so important, especially after getting pregnant, but that day it didn`t matter. He wouldn`t have really cared if he found out that she had ran off and eloped with someone without telling him. He would have literally forgiven anything to her, just to know that she was going to be okay. So, after a second he shook his head. ”No, it doesn`t matter. Don`t tell me, I don`t wanna know.” Now they were both smiling and standing in the corridor like complete idiots. Okay so the infection might be spreading, but it was going to be okay, because the healer said so and Leon was going to believe her. Who was he to argue with someone who had magic on their side and who knew what they were doing? He was just grateful that they didn`t throw him out, that they were helping Cassie and that she was going to be fine in a couple of days. Even when the Healer adopted a more serious look, his own expression didn`t change. He felt like it was going to be okay, because it had to. And now he could go and say that to Cassie, and they could both smile and just deal with the whole ‘love’ thing later (it really needed some dealing…) Nodding at the woman`s words he smiled again. ”Thank you. So much. I don`t know what would I do if I`d lose them…” He murmured, taking a step back and glancing at the door. ”I should go back inside to tell her about all this… she must be dying in fear…” He would have been in her position. Pushing the door open he once again ignored everyone in the room and walked straight to her. This time his face wasn`t sad, just maybe concerned. Reaching her he placed his hand on her forehead and brushed it down against her face, cupping her cheek. He couldn`t help it anymore and eventually smiled. ”Everything is going to be okay… it`s… it`s all being taken care of… and the child is more than healthy…” His hand was now completely steady against her skin. |
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| Cassie Davis | Oct 6 2010, 09:28 PM Post #15 |
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Inside, things seemed to be at a standstill. Cassie was stable, and all that was happening now was waiting. Various other tests were being done, but nothing alarming was happening now. Everything was okay, she'd told herself. Everything was going to be perfectly fine. When Leon had walked in, the Healer trailing behind him, she noticed that he didn't look so afraid anymore. Maybe it'd been good news, then? But if it had, why pull him away? Were they trying to drive her insane? The moment his hand touched her face, her eyes that had finally dried overflowed again, and she closed her eyes to let a few tears leak out. This was all her fault, wasn't it? She'd let it come down to this. She'd let it escalate, get out of hand. And Leon... He'd been so worried, scared out of his mind for her, for this baby. She was blaming herself again. "It wasn't morning sickness." She'd let the words slip from her lips, more tears escaping. Sure, maybe there'd been a little bit of morning sickness, but... not like that. She was sicker than any other pregnant person on the planet, and he'd believed it was all morning sickness. Which, given the circumstances, was believable. However, that was not the case. "Leon, I'm sick. I didn't know... it'd get so bad, but I should have told you, I shouldn't have hidden it from you, not..." Not when she was the one carrying his child, the one she was putting in danger. How dare she? "I'm so sorry. I'm so, so sorry." But she'd be okay. They would be okay. And the three of them? They'd be home in a few days, safe and ready to continue on with what could be an amazing life together. They loved each other, didn't they? Maybe that was just too much wishful thinking, and if she mentioned anything about it and he got upset, she could blame it on their current situation. No one was really sane when they were subjected to spending an immense amount of time in a hospital bed, were they? "I just..." She sighed, lifting a shaky hand and placing it on his, which was now much steadier. He was calm. He was okay now, which meant she should be okay now. She'd take a while to recover, sure, but she'd get better, right? She was already feeling better. Her throat was a little scratchy and dry though, and she coughed, about to ask for a drink of water when she coughed again. It felt like there was something caught in her throat, something slowly suffocating her, and she pushed herself into a sitting position with her hand on her mouth as she attempted to clear it out. She didn't even need to pull her hand away to see the blood dripping down it. There were a few beeps, out of place on the heart monitor attached to her. It was solely panic that made it skip like that, wasn't it? But if it was only panic, why was she still coughing up blood? And, damn it, why couldn't she breathe? The beeping was going faster now, the sound practically resonating throughout the entire room. At least, that was how it sounded to her ears. Wasn't this the exact opposite of okay? Only seconds after she'd started reacting such a way, Healers were surrounding her again, trying to push Leon out of the way as they messed with wires and such, panicking over certain details, searching for medical instruments, things that were supposed to help. "You're going to need to leave the room," a Healer told him, barely even looking at Leon as he rushed to Cassie's side. "Her lungs are failing." |
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| Leon Goodwill | Oct 8 2010, 08:02 PM Post #16 |
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Maybe he wasn`t completely honest with himself. Leon still feared that something might happen, but his fear was exactly the reason why he felt so calm. He managed to push everything else away, ignore it, naively rely on the Healer`s words and believe them thoroughly. On the other hand, what other choice did he have? To keep on shaking with fear, afraid to look away from her, because the other second she might be gone? His whole body gladly agreed with the idea to ignore the true facts. However, when Cassie spoke he felt how his stomach turned and he had to look away, because there was this disgusting lump in his throat that was literally making him sick. She knew. She knew it all along. Somehow her tears didn`t do it this time, didn`t make him forget absolutely everything in the world. The bitter knowledge was still there – she knew it all along and yet she didn`t tell him a damn thing. The lump in his throat was driving him insane and by that point he refused to look her in the eye. Fine, she didn`t have to trust him, but it was their child they were talking about… ”I…” The lump didn`t let him speak properly and he basically chocked the word out. Closing his eyes he took a deep breath, trying to push all the negative feelings that suddenly crushed on him aside. This all wasn`t about it, he couldn`t freak out, he could get angry – there was going to be plenty of time for that later. ”I wish I knew.” That was all he said, because he was sure that if he spoke more he`d fail to control his voice and it might sound colder, angrier than it should have. He couldn`t put her under any more stress. Then she began coughing. Leon was about to ask if she was alright when it happened. He smelled the blood before it even showed up but it was enough to get him panicking. ”Cas??” It wasn`t a question nor a statement, but merely a reaction, in which the sense of fear was obvious. She wasn`t supposed to be coughing up blood, that was certain. When suddenly the Healers began crowding her and Leon found himself pushed away from her he once again was reminded of how frail she was. Maybe she was a werewolf, but that made her strong just for that one night of the month. Any other days she was like any other human being. Frail, weak, easily killed. Leon felt sick once more as he pressed his back to the wall, closed his eyes and leaned his head back as well, just enough for it to bump against the wall. ”I`m not going anywhere.” He murmured, swallowing loudly. Dammit, he wasn`t going to leave even if it meant starting a fight. He could feel his heartbeat going up, and he could feel panic slowly making it`s way through his barrier. Suddenly his eyes were torn open and stabbed at the woman he had spoken to just moment before. ”You`ve told me it was okay.” He hissed out the words, clenching his jaw. By that point Leon was practically few moments away from breaking down and again giving into the panic he was feeling. |
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| Cassie Davis | Oct 8 2010, 08:54 PM Post #17 |
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He wouldn't look at her, and that hurt more than anything physical that was going on in her body at that moment. He didn't have to say a single thing for her to know that he was angry with her; it was obvious just in his expression. His words weren't cold, but they may as well have been, because it felt like he was stabbing her straight through the heart. How could she have kept her failing health such a secret? Especially after she'd gotten pregnant? This was his child, his child that she was taking away from him along with herself. And it was all because she hadn't felt the need to tell him anything. She hadn't thought it was important enough. It was all happening too quickly. She couldn't breathe, couldn't even manage to gasp for a single breath. If she couldn't breathe, then what about her baby? That meant that it couldn't breathe either, right? Maybe even less than her. That sudden realization sent panic through her entire body, and the beeping grew louder, more erratic. Healers were trying to tell her to calm down, but damn it, how could she? How could she calm down when she was in the process of losing the only thing that ever mattered? Her baby, Leon... Her life. It was all fading very quickly, "It was okay!" The Healer replied to Leon, quickly walking past him to Cassie. "It was. I don't know what's going on anymore, but we're doing all that we can." The beeping went faster for only a moment, before it skipped a beat and slowed. Her breathing, though it had only been gasps searching for oxygen, slowed as well. Her chest had been rising and falling rapidly with each gasp, yet now it laid flat. The beeping in the room had stopped being so rapid, settling instead for a single beep that seemed to never end. A glance at the monitor beside her would show that, instead of the spikes from each beat of her heart, there was only a flat line. The room went still for merely a second, before the Healers were searching for anything and everything to bring her and the baby back. It really figured that it would all end this way. Cassie had been through abusive boyfriends and terrible falls, she'd been through multiple overdoses, vampire kidnappings, and about a million other things. It seemed only right that her death would be less than eventful. It seemed only fitting that she'd be taken down by something as simple as an illness. Going this way just seemed right. |
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| Leon Goodwill | Oct 8 2010, 10:08 PM Post #18 |
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Dear God, Leon had no idea what was going on. When he was young there were no such things as all that technical stuff in Cassie`s room, there were no beeping sounds, no monitors and most important, there was no magic. And he knew it was okay that he found himself completely lost, only relying on Cassie`s body movement for information, but yet at the same time he felt like he was going to lose it and start yelling at someone to explain to him what was going on. The coughing up blood problem wasn`t the main thing anymore – soon enough he noticed that she was gasping for air. Leon took a deep breath and placed his hand over his mouth, trying his best to calm down. There were Healers all around them, they had magic, they could fix it in no time, it wasn`t serious, because it couldn`t be. The infection was being treated, it couldn`t affect her organs, it couldn`t affect her even more. As the woman passed by he glared at her. ”Well you`re not doing enough!” Was it bad of him to request that they wouldn`t do ‘all they can’ but just to fix her? And then it happened. He felt it. The beeping sound meant nothing to him, he would have thought that some machine just broke, but he felt it. He felt how she was slipping away. Suddenly everything in the room went completely silent and still. The time had stopped and Leon stood there, his eyes stabbed at her such lifeless body, as he saw her through a gap between two Healers. She wasn`t moving, she wasn`t breathing, she wasn`t there in the room exactly. The time stood still and maybe that was the reason why he couldn`t feel a damn thing – no pain, no grief, no sorrow, but just nothing instead. There were no sounds around him, everything was moving in slow motion and there was only one thought on his mind – she`s gone. And she won`t be back. That second everything came back to life. Fast forwarded, even. The beeping machines that were going crazy, the Healers, talking loudly, nearly yelling at each other, their hearts beating fiercely against their ribs, their loud and hasty breaths taken in a rush… he could hear and see every little movement, except for Cassie`s. He couldn`t hear her heartbeat, nor her breaths, he couldn`t see her chest moving, nor her muscles twitching. For some reason he remembered how she sat behind the bars in the damn cell, her face dirty, her clothes torn and yet she was laughing at something that he said. When suddenly it struck him – she will never laugh again. She will never give birth to their child. That was what made him move. His brain was shut off completely and he got his way through he Healers and reached her, immediately freezing the moment he was able to see her clearly. Unbelievable pain shot through him as his mouth opened for a soundless scream and he closed the distance between them, his body once again shaking. ”Cassie, oh my God, Cas… Cas…” The words slipped through his lips as his hands landed on her face, his fingers touching her skin, unconsciously looking for any sign of life. ”Please, please, Cassie, please don`t… I… good God…” Words didn`t need to make sense. It was only then that he realized that he was crying. Leon broke down. Gave into the panic and the pain he had been feeling. His muscles strained themselves because of the pain he was feeling, his throat went dry and his fingers kept brushing against her cheeks, hoping that that would make her wake up. No one needed to tell him what was going on, because he felt it better than anyone else could. ”Don`t leave me, Cassie… you can`t leave me…” His fingers tangled into her hair as he tried to grip onto her. Seven months had went by since everything drastically changed. Seven damn months of pure crap and he was losing her now, now when things were supposed to be perfect. Eventually he didn`t have the strength to speak anymore, he didn`t have the strength to stand straight. His cheeks were wet, but that was the last thing that mattered. The only thing he clearly understood was that this might be the end. And there was nothing he could do to change it. |
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| Cassie Davis | Oct 9 2010, 05:18 AM Post #19 |
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It was amazing just how slow things seemed to be going in the hospital room. They were in the maternity ward, for Merlin's sake. They shouldn't be in the middle of losing a patient! They should be making sure the other, much smaller one was okay! A Healer cursed in the corner, another ran their hands over their face, trying to pull it all together. It wasn't over yet. "Sir, please back up." A Healer gently tried to push Leon aside for a moment, but then went back to working with a bunch of wires attached to Cassie and left him alone. Maybe, just maybe, they could bring her back. Maybe she wasn't dead yet. Maybe they could still save her. "I'm so sorry," the Healer from earlier was apologizing, eyes wide and apologetic, yet still not ready to accept what seemed to be the truth. "I..." She shook her head, and went to join the others. Time seemed to pass by extremely slowly, though in reality it was only a few seconds. Whether it be from a faulty machine, or just an absolute miracle, the beeping skipped and resumed its original state of beeping every few seconds. The lines on the monitor spiked up, and the girl on the bed was gasping for breath again, but this time she was actually able to get it, helped by the breathing tubes and stuff now attached to her. She was alive. Now, their main priority was the child. A Healer sent for an ultrasound machine, while another got ready to prepare for any outcome possible. Cassie, on the other hand? Her eyes were wide open, full of fear, yet locked on Leon. His fingers against her skin, that fear, that absolute desperation in his eyes... It killed her. "Told you I wasn't going anywhere." Her voice was weak, weaker than it had been during their entire stay at the hospital, but it was there. She was there, and really... she wasn't going anywhere. |
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| Leon Goodwill | Oct 11 2010, 04:51 PM Post #20 |
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There were so many times that Cassie could have died. She attracted trouble, trouble in the shapes of werewolves or evil vampires. But who could have thought that the reason of her death would be a simply tiny infection that anyone could have? That just didn`t make sense in Leon’s mind. Of course, it might have been the fact that at that moment absolutely nothing made sense to him. The whole world was just a huge senseless pit. Someone was asking him to step away from her, but did they honestly think that he would do that? They would have to tear him away and yet he`d probably fight till his last breath in order to stay by her side. She couldn`t be gone. Cassie could not be gone. The pain that struck him was too great for him to handle. In his lifetime Leon had felt a lot, he had been hurt a lot, he had been in pain a lot, but none of that compared to what he felt that moment. The loss of her was so evident and so obvious that he couldn`t understand how no one else was on the ground twitching from the pain. How could they not feel what he felt? It was in the room, hanging in the air like a heavy and a thick mist. Leon wasn`t thinking what he was going to do. He wasn`t trying to imagine his life without her. He still held onto her, positive that she wouldn`t leave him, wouldn`t do such a thing to him. That was why his fingers stayed tangled in her hair, why he buried his face in her curls and just tried to stay closer, because she was alive, he did feel that she was slipping, it was obvious, but she was alive, because he didn`t feel the emptiness yet, he didn`t feel alone yet. That was when it happened. That was when the beeping started again. Beep, one, two, three, beep, one, two, three, beep… Leon felt it. Her heart. She was gasping for breath, eventually getting it. And… she was looking at him. God, it didn`t felt like only few seconds had passed since the beeping stopped. It felt like eternities went by. He suddenly laughed at her words, his eyes still wet as he placed his hands on her cheeks and kissed her lips forcefully, before resting his forehead against her. ”Please… don`t ever scare me like that again…” He whispered, his voice still hoarse. It was too difficult to figure out what was he feeling that moment, for he hadn`t gotten over the shock, nor the pain, but he knew she didn`t leave him. Not yet. |
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