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Topic Started: Feb 14 2007, 01:19 AM (40,467 Views)
Abi Noel-Carter
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Abi laughed really quietly at the remark. A couple years back, that really would have pissed her off; the insinuation that her life was never all that hard, or that she never had trouble. Something about having the twins had changed that. It was true; she had an amazing husband, her family, and her life that made her not be so quick to point out her own troubles.

So instead, she only said, "Everyone has their pain." She could understand that, right? Abi had no intention of running through lists of what her life was like; ranting seemed to get her no where these days. It got her yelled at and in places she should be arresting people, and while technicalities always presented themselves so she wasn't actually liable, but she felt that way. She felt like she hid this ridiculous secret of maintaining love for her brother, even though Tristan knew it, even though Tristan had said he'd understood. She didn't know what she wanted anymore. Tiger had been absolutely right to point it out; she was conflicted, because she still loved Ryan, but she always was going to end up unable to really forgive him. She wanted him to serve justice for what he'd done to Tristan--and her own--family, and she wanted him to be free to be with his family. The conflicting wants were always tearing her apart, and she was just so fed up with it that she was trying to shut it up somehow. She figured she could do that eventually. Eventually.

Right?

Looking back over at Ella, realizing she really wasn't sure what it was she'd even said, she blinked for a second. "I guess I don't know the circumstances, but...if you say so."

Then she laughed and said, "Is it weird that I basically just said I trust you?"

Yes, most absolutely yes.
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"Considering trusting me has got you nowhere in the past? Yeah, it's weird," Ella said, amused by it all the same.

Their was....complicated. That seemed like the best way to put it. To attempt to even think about everything on the spot was a task all its own. Still, they weren't arguing. That was promising. What did they talk about though? Normal conversation wasn't normal as it was usually something like Abi giving out another chance and Ella destroying it. Yeah if she could have now she probably wouldn't have gone and messed it up just because it would be a change.

"Though I have to say I'm probably not much of a threat without a wand and magic so you're pretty safe."

And as unbalanced, literally, as she was.

"If you need help, you know finding the file or whatever, I could help. I mean I'm probably not allowed to even look at those files but that's your call."
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"That's what I thought..."

As Abi blinked and attempted to process that Ella had honestly just offered to help her with paperwork, she started laughing at the truth of this odd run-in. She hadn't meant to insinuate that she'd attempt to arrest her- at that moment, Abi couldn't even remember if she was supposed to, considering Ella's help in the maze and during the virus, and having been cleared of charges by Anne Graft that one time...

Merlin, their history was just impossibly long wasn't it? Abi couldn't remember half of it off the top of her head anymore. She just laughed, amused with the situation and their attempt at normal conversation.

It wasn't a mean laugh. She was good-naturedly amused, laughing with genuine light and heart. After a few moments, she let it die off and shook her head saying, "No, it's fine, I could just accio it if I needed it that fast."

And she grinned slightly, "And I figured I was safe. I haven't tried to arrest you yet, have I?"
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"Not yet but I haven't done anything to deserve it yet."

Back tracking on what to comment on seemed like the better idea. Espeically since the arrested thing called for a quick one. She had kept out of trouble sure but she hardly figured that would last long. What with her thing of hanging around Faustus. That was bound to go all wrong.

"Well-" Ella stood up and took a step down onto the last stair. "I'll leave you to it then."

Then jokingly she took her hand from her pocket with the mark and held it up.

"If I need you I'll just call."

Hey that thing did come in handy every now and again though.
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Abi laughed again holding up her own marked hand to wave back. "Back at you."

Weird, unbelievably backwards, twisted universe of late...

She waved goodbye and entered the headquarters, locating her file relatively quickly and exiting a moment later. There was still a hell of a lot of work to be done, obviously.
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Faustus silently walked down the stairs, a frown on his face. he didn`t feel sorry for what he did, because it simply had to be done. He just hated the fact that Ella saw it and he hated his own thoughts. Thoughts that told him that Ella had been using him all along. That she was sent on a mission to get information from him. That started haunting him. That was what he hated.

Stopping at last he leaned his back on one of the trees. Emily... she was probably going to hate him. He knew that if anyone would have given him time, he wouldn`t have been so cruel. But anger and need to do it took over. Like it always did.

Looking in his pockets for his cigarettes he found one, put it between his lips and lit it up. Sometimes it felt like he didn`t even know himself anymore. That the person who he was didn`t even exist.

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Ella couldn't stand staying in the common room after that. When she glanced at Emily and saw her looking at her like that... She took off out the door and stopped at the first stair. Her hands were shaking and she figured that much was reasonable. Seeing Faustus though she put aside any regret or any hate for herself for just standing there while he did what he did.

"What the hell was that about?"

Like she knew anything. She had put herself in the situation by mistake but she hadn't known anything. It was stupid to even attempt to talk to him. She should have been mad at him or something but she didn't think she was capable of that right then.
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Faustus heard her steps before she spoke. He didn`t even turn to look at her, though. What would that even change? Instead he just played with the cigarette between his fingers. She would never understand. Women wouldn`t understand that there were more important things than just having a damn child.

"She was pregnant, I told her to get rid of it, she said no, I did it for her." he spoke in a very still voice. Any other time he would have acted different around Ella. But not that moment. he was too tired of everything. Even of him.

he was silent for a bit, thinking. "Why didn`t you help her? You`re in the precious order after all." his voice was full of loathe as he said that. Probably because he still believed that she wanted nothing more but to use him. Probably because he wanted to believe it, cause believing it meant that he wouldn`t have to deal with her feelings anymore, just his own.

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The way he was so calm even talking about it was just slightly unnerving. He didn't seem to care one bit. Arguably so it could be Ella didn't care either since she had stood aside, but she had mixed reasons for doing that.

"I didn't want to help her. That's simple isn't it?" she answered. "What does me being in the Order have to do with anything?"

It was practically a dead organization with lack of meetings and lack of anything. The Auror's took care of their own business and those that weren't good enough were left in the smaller group to do nothing. She had thought it wasn't fair before, but now she honestly didn't care.
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Faustus turned to her at last. "You do realize that I`m the 'bad guy', right? And you are in the Order... and... do you actually expect me to believe that you have feelings for me?" he asked, stretching up, throwing the cigarette away and moving towards her.

"You know, Ella, I really thought that I was doing you a favor. Pushing you away, not letting you get hurt. But I wouldn`t have hurt you. It was all an act. A little precious act that actually fooled me." he stopped in front of her. That was the reason why he was so emotionless when talking about Emily. No matter what happened, she wasn`t the most important that moment.

He hated himself for being so vulnerable. He couldn`t even stay away from one simple woman that was most likely using him.

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"Are you serious? You're going to start some new excuse up? News flash I'm in the Order under the technicality that my name is on a piece of paper that says so. I couldn't name one bloody meeting I've gone to for it."

That was just freaking ridiculous. She couldn't have done that even if it was a order. She doubted they did those sort of things anyways or would have trusted her enough for that. Which was a point too.

"Nobody trusts me enough to have me do something like that. You got it wrong."

Ella didn't particularly like how close he was getting because sane though was usually lost at that point. Any thought for that matter.
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Faustus watched her. He wanted it all to settle, but how could it? Him and Ella... they were too different. He needed someone who would do his any will, do everything he didn`t want to do. On the other hand, he probably needed just to try instead of thinking about it. What was there to lose anymore? Everything was lost anyway.

"Fine." he said after a while. He glanced at the building, then at the forest nearby. "I`m sick and tired of this and of myself. I’m not going to try and escape it anymore. I don`t want to." he said, completely serious. Maybe it would end up being 'just sex'. Did it matter? Emily, pregnancy... he wasn`t himself anymore and maybe it was for the better.

He was looking right down at her. It sounded actually insane. "Screw everything. I like you. I like you enough to be standing over here and talking with you when I should do anything to make sure that Emily stays silent."

His breathing quickened and he figured that he never thought that such moment could go so weirdly. That he`d keep going back and forth and at last just do everything like that. "I like you enough to want to kiss you right now and not think about what is going to happen and what I`m going to do." he added.

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Ella was a bit taken aback by what he said. Fine? Normally some sort of argument followed or anything but simply giving up. That's what she wanted sure, but did she think it would happen? Of course not. Everything he was saying sounded weird coming from him, and not to mention weird because of the last time they had talked at St. Mungos. She had figured that was it and he was gone and now look. Was she going to question it? Not if she risked ruining the one given chance. She wasn't all to sure what to say to him either, at least not till he finished.

"Then do it."

If he meant it then she figured he would. She hoped he did. She shouldn't have but she was past questioning her own morals and her own decisions.
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Faustus knew that there would be days that he was going to regret making that choice, but he simply couldn`t do it anymore. How many times had he left already? Or at least tried to leave? It was over. He lost Emily, or at least it looked so. He didn`t want to push away what he wanted just because of his own beliefs. He could always end it any time after it, right?

So, he didn`t struggle when he closed the space between the two and kissed her passionately. His one hand went around her waist, pulling her close, while the other rested on the back of her neck, right where the mark used to be.

Maybe he was desperate. After all what had happened, who wouldn`t be? But the moment he kissed her he felt right. He felt that that was exactly what he was supposed to do, what he had to do all along, but for some stupid reason he didn`t. He wanted her. Every since the first time he kissed her, he had always wanted her, but he had managed to hide those feelings. Nothing good came out of it, had it?

Giving in was probably the best thing he had ever done.

He wasn`t sure how long the kiss took and it didn`t matter. He only pulled his lips away, only a bit, to tell her what he found important. "I`m sorry I took so long." he said quietly, opening his eyes and looking at her. And actually? He absolutely meant it.

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Ella was partly surprised that he actually did. That maybe everything would be alright. She slipped her arms around his neck as she kissed him back, knowing that every-time hadn't meant the same as the last. It just meant more. She had been on the brink of him up and leaving and having the chance of not running into him again, and yet there was a complete turn around. With what he said though she couldn't help but smile. She was happy. Against all odds she was.

"Better late than never," Ella told him.

What happened in the common room didn't matter. Whatever regret or hate for herself for that didn't even matter. Whatever doubts she had, they were gone. Outside opinions that she normally listened to wouldn't be this time. She wouldn't let that ruin it all again. The thing was though that she didn't have any doubts. Normally there was always something, something so small and yet in the end it mattered, but that wasn't the case this time.
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Faustus` hand from her neck went on her cheek. How could something so small actually make him feel good? Because right after he said 'fine', right when he let go and kissed her? He felt really good. It was beyond his understanding. It was just a word, one simple action, but it felt as if something inside him changed. Something what had been pushing him down all the time just disappeared.

And he liked that feeling. A lot.

Tugging a strand of her hair behind her ear he leaned in and kissed her shortly again. Did that mean that they were a couple? That sounded weird too. He wasn`t a 'boyfriend' material, but Ella didn`t seem to mind. And he caught himself thinking about it again. So, instead of doing that he just smiled down to her.

"Did I hurt you a lot?" he asked silently, the smile disappearing for a bit as he watched her closely. He wasn`t absolutely sure, because what was going on that very moment? It had never happened to him before. "I... don`t know what I was running from."

And yet, he couldn`t keep serious for long. Soon again he smiled. "And now I don`t have a place where I could take you." he said lightly. It wasn`t that he couldn`t find one, it was just pointing out the obvious. Emily was going to be pissed off and he knew she`d do anything to hurt him. But... it didn`t bother him.

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It was strange how everything had had a complete turn around. She honestly didn't think it was going to end up like it was now just because of the last time she had run into him. That was a mess. But wasn't there some sort of saying of leave the past in the past? She intended to if things were alright now. Forgive and forget.

"A little."

She was prone to overreacting to so that no doubt made it worse. Not to mention the general stress from that day.

"I think we need a change of scenery anyways."
Then when she did think about Mungos she remembered her broken wand and laughed a moment. "You definitely owe me a wand. Mine was in two pieces at my room at St. Mungo's because I got so mad."

Which it was probably thrown out by now. Did she mention she overreacts easily?
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Faustus was actually sorry that he hurt her. And it was weird to realize that. He never was truly sorry for anything, except when it came to Ella. He wasn`t sure if that was a good change. Although he did understand that nothing actually good could come out of that. But he was willing to sacrifice some dignity. He had lost a lot of it in the past few days anyway.

He smiled a little. "Change of scenery?" he repeated thoughtfully. That moment his fingers were playing with another strand of her hair, while he still held her by her waist. it was good to feel her close and know that he didn`t have to leave after all. "Where would you like to go? Right now?" he wondered.

But then he frowned a little and shook his head. "I`m not going to allow you to walk around without a wand." he said completely serious. "How are you supposed to defend yourself? Especially if you`re thinking of being with me. Because if people will find out? They won`t be too happy, you should know." he explained, still in the serious voice, watching the strand of her hair, instead of her eyes.

Yet, slowly he looked directly at her. "Unless... we don`t tell people." he smirked playfully.

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"Like....anywhere?" she asked to clarify.

Ella hadn't even thought about the what if's of other people finding out, but she didn't exactly see the big deal. She probably should have but she didn't see how she had to worry about that. The only person she had to worry about was Abi and mainly because of the SKM and the unwanted switching places thing that tended to happen. That would only be an issue if they did switch and she was with him. Again, worrying about it seemed pointless; they hadn't switched in ages.

"It's none of their business," Ella told him. Usually she let outside opinions to get her but not this time. She swore she wouldn't let all that get into her head again. "Unless we don't," she agreed last, grinning the same.
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"Anywhere is not exactly a place, is it?" Faustus asked, laughing. "You see, I need a home for now. Emily is going to be... pissed. I don`t think I want to be around the manor if Aurors start searching around. Which would be much worse if not knowing that this night actually did something good." he smiled a bit and glanced back at the building. It seemed weird that he simply didn`t care. He was so tired from all of it anyway. This was a good thing. A change, but hopefully a good one.

"So, tell me where would you like me to be?" weird thing was, that he really wanted to know. France didn`t quite do it, because as much as he knew, not many of them spoke in English. Italy never allured him... Maybe some smaller country, somewhere where he could actually relax for a bit. It would be like a small vacation, and not a runaway.

He stopped playing with her hair and dropped his hand down with a sigh. "That`s settled then... we don`t go out in public." he said, still smiling. "Not that I could be in public anyway..." he added.

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